Never. I've been mostly just lurking, reading— just now started posting. And as far as i've seen the people here just make sure that you're 100% sure you want to end yourself, giving you plenty of avenues out, and if you ARE— well, they stay by you if you don't want to die alone.
Honestly, I wish I could empathize with family members and such whom like to blame anything else but themselves for their loved one killing themselves— but coming from someone that unfortunately survived a suicide at 15, which lead to my father just upping the emotional abuse? Yeah, can't empathize. Selfishness and hypocricy and blindness is prevalent in those that are left behind. They cannot even conceive that they may have something to do with their loved one being gone because they're that full of themselves.
That's why, when I leave? I'm leaving a VIDEO laying it out and I am 100% making sure I don't fail. I don't want a funeral, I wanna be cremated— and my dad doesn't get even a dusting of my ashes.
He doesn't deserve it. He caused this.