VigilanteWithViolin
Member
- Dec 19, 2024
- 33
I think I wallowed in my apathy until the very end.
I can't focus on anything, I start a lot of things at once and end up giving up everything. I don't even have the energy to eat. I barely go to bed at 7 a.m., and then I wake up in the evening and lie in bed for a long time because I don't see the point in getting up. Creativity, music, and books no longer please me.
I go to a meeting with my friends on Saturday, we get together every week, but I feel like it won't bring me joy.
And bad thoughts! They keep coming into my head, triggers, sad memories. No matter what I think about, no matter what I do, everything bad that I can remember is squeezing me in a vice.
All I can think about is that after death, all this suffering will end, and that comforts me, but not much. I'm still not sure about my method, but I don't have the strength for another one.
I can't focus on anything, I start a lot of things at once and end up giving up everything. I don't even have the energy to eat. I barely go to bed at 7 a.m., and then I wake up in the evening and lie in bed for a long time because I don't see the point in getting up. Creativity, music, and books no longer please me.
I go to a meeting with my friends on Saturday, we get together every week, but I feel like it won't bring me joy.
And bad thoughts! They keep coming into my head, triggers, sad memories. No matter what I think about, no matter what I do, everything bad that I can remember is squeezing me in a vice.
All I can think about is that after death, all this suffering will end, and that comforts me, but not much. I'm still not sure about my method, but I don't have the strength for another one.
