Fuji
Drowning in the abyss
- Nov 16, 2023
- 28
I got my SN coming Monday and I can't wait. I'm actually so glad its got through customs. Its at local delivery place now.
I'm happy I will finally be at peace soon. When SN comes I will be taking it that night. Just gotta hope I don't get found and then get sectioned again. I already came out of hopsital end of last month and really dont want that again. I keep being sectioned, I wont let it happen again. Not getting injected again with Lorazapam. Fuck them. I got injected 10 times in a week because I was in pyschosis.
Im sick of people telling me im strong. Im sick of this bullshit of a life. Its my choice to die and no one will stop me. Ive tried so many times but this one will be final. Everyone who tells me I cant end my life can fuck off. Ive had enough of auditory hallucinations, ptsd, autism etc I cant take anymore. Maybe I am weak for doing it but its my body, my life and im at peace with death.
I'm happy I will finally be at peace soon. When SN comes I will be taking it that night. Just gotta hope I don't get found and then get sectioned again. I already came out of hopsital end of last month and really dont want that again. I keep being sectioned, I wont let it happen again. Not getting injected again with Lorazapam. Fuck them. I got injected 10 times in a week because I was in pyschosis.
Im sick of people telling me im strong. Im sick of this bullshit of a life. Its my choice to die and no one will stop me. Ive tried so many times but this one will be final. Everyone who tells me I cant end my life can fuck off. Ive had enough of auditory hallucinations, ptsd, autism etc I cant take anymore. Maybe I am weak for doing it but its my body, my life and im at peace with death.
