No, I see no happiness in this torturous, dreadful and deeply undesirable existence I just always saw as the most terrible mistake, I don't see what's so happy about another year of existing beings tortured in this existence with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, existence truly is the most horrific abomination that only ever tortures existing beings and the fact that humans continue to impose this existence truly is the most cruel, devastating tragedy.
Every second in this existence is torture to be conscious, for me only non-existence is positive, only in non-existence will I be permanently at peace and safe from all harm and suffering, I just want to be permanently unconscious with this evil existence all gone and forgotten about, to suffer for another year in this horrific reality will just always be so terrible to me, I don't see what could ever be happy about being forced to suffer in this torturous existence where wanting true permanent peace is a crime with the suffering and torture of existing seen as to force and prolong no matter what.
