Hanging suicide

[limone]

I've mentioned in couple of threads about my decision. Hard to say, but life is currently unbearable for me. It's not spontaneous but reconsidered decision: I gonna hang myself, full suspension. A lot of folks warned me of pain, brutality of this method. However it's absolutely non-reversible, I won't need further tests or failed attempts. Moreover, a risk to be rescued with brain damage is minimal. Now everything is prepared, though I have not set the date and time. I cope with survival instinct - believe me - it's not easy. Maybe I will need a bit of alco, maybe not…It may happen as early as tonight.

 

[ShadowOfTheDay]

Good luck. I hope it's quick and relatively painless.

 

[limone]

Good luck. I hope it's quick and relatively painless.

Thanks. I know it will probably hurt but not very long. The most important is that it will only one step.

 

[Volomori83]

If hanging is done right there should be an intense pressure on the neck (wouldn't describe it as painful), but only for a few seconds (5-10 seconds), then start to blackout, spasm a bit then go unconscious. There'll be no awareness of what comes next.

 

[marcusuk63]

Pain is a funny old thing . ive been in excruciating on several occasions a few motorbike crashes , run over by a tractor , fallen off a ladder and landed on my foot shattering my heal like an egg shell and breaking two bones and last summer i managed to drop a concrete slab on my foot , i never got medical attention for that as i was hoping i`d somehow die from toxic shock or something lol , i can only move one toe now , but you handle it . anyway as i say ive been in a lot of pain but some how doing something to yourself that might inflict pain is scary

 

[Jiva]

Hug. Have a peace.

 

[Ruffian]

Good luck - I find full suspension so scary.

 

[limone]

Good luck - I find full suspension so scary.

yeah...I am scared but need to do it...the noose is waiting now

 

[Kikoo Loool]

Good luck, have rest.

 

[limone]

Good luck, have rest.

thank you. I gonna dress up for my journey

 

[Dead beat dad]

I sincerely hope you find peace friend. May light shine for you and you can rest easy.
DBD

 

[limone]

The noose is thick and looks almost comfy. I've placed kitchen stool below. I hope it will go smooth

 

[FauxEmotions]

May it be as peaceful as it looks and what comes next is eternal rest.

 

[silentsinger]

I'm so sorry. But I want you to be ok. You are loved.

 

[limone]

May it be as peaceful as it looks and what comes next is eternal rest.

yeah, it's very peaceful and silent here...the noose seems inviting...I've taken off my shoes and socks

 

[FauxEmotions]

yeah, it's very peaceful and silent here...the noose seems inviting...I've taken off my shoes and socks

Sounds inviting and nice. Plan on any music or is it perfect setting as is?

 

[limone]

Sounds inviting and nice. Plan on any music or is it perfect setting as is?

no, I don't plan any music...I need silence only...I've put on for this journey my favourite skinny jeans and black tee

 

[TheGoodGuy]

Hope everything go smooth and respect for choosing this method, it´s a method that has been used for hundreds if not thousands of years and it works, as you said it´s none reversible which is how suicides should be so really what is some discomfort and pain to a lifetime of misery and suffering?

I am going to use a gun to ctb soon but since it´s a 9mm I have even considered if there will be pain which I am almost sure there won´t be but again a couple minutes of pain to a lifetime of misery, hardship and suffering is okay with me.

Again I hope you have the courage to go through with it and you won´t have too much discomfort or pain.

 

[limone]

Hope everything go smooth and respect for choosing this method, it´s a method that has been used for hundreds if not thousands of years and it works, as you said it´s none reversible which is how suicides should be so really what is some discomfort and pain to a lifetime of misery and suffering?

I am going to use a gun to ctb soon but since it´s a 9mm I have even considered if there will be pain which I am almost sure there won´t be but again a couple minutes of pain to a lifetime of misery, hardship and suffering is okay with me.

Again I hope you have the courage to go through with it and you won´t have too much discomfort or pain.

thanks...yes it will be non reversible , the set-up is well done, the rope is firmly attached to hook in the ceiling, unlikely to break...I'm feeling fright of course. I am scared of "complete emptiness" afterwards

 

[TheGoodGuy]

thanks...yes it will be non reversible , the set-up is well done, the rope is firmly attached to hook in the ceiling, unlikely to break...I'm feeling fright of course. I am scared of "complete emptiness" afterwards

Yeah I heard you mentioned the hook before in another post but are you sure it will hold your full body weight? Have you tested it?

I get what you mean, I used to feel so comfortable knowing we will just seize to exist now I desperately want to wake up as a child again once I die or be reincarnated with a healthy normal functioning good looking body in a rich family just to experience what a good life will feel like so emptiness feels a bit scary to me now because I will never experience anything after I ctb.

 

[limone]

Yeah I heard you mentioned the hook before in another post but are you sure it will hold your full body weight? Have you tested it?

I get what you mean, I used to feel so comfortable knowing we will just seize to exist now I desperately want to wake up as a child again once I die or be reincarnated with a healthy normal functioning good looking body in a rich family just to experience what a good life will feel like so emptiness feels a bit scary to me now because I will never experience anything after I ctb.

It's expansion anchor used for lifting heavy objects, I've tested it. And my body weight is low. It will work

 

[Volomori83]

I'll be taking the same trip as you tomorrow. I'm definitely scared but your bravery here lifts me up.

 

[limone]

Rope is noosed and tied to the hook with sailing knot. three leg kitchen stool below

 

[TheGoodGuy]

It's expansion anchor used for lifting heavy objects, I've tested it. And my body weight is low. It will work

Good to hear, I am not very handy so I don´t know much about it I was just picturing a little hook screwed in the ceiling using your hands to hold a cord for a lamb or something like that.

 

[limone]

I gonna climb this stool, then noose my neck and flex my knees to tense the rope to avoid unnecessary jerk. Then I gonna simply kick out the stool

 

[Volomori83]

Where on your neck are you placing the noose?

 

[limone]

Where on your neck are you placing the noose?

I'm going to place knot below ear, more or less

 

[Volomori83]

When are you planning on doing it?

 

[limone]

I've adjusted length of rope too. my body won't touch the floor - it's very important - what I want to avoid is botched attempt

When are you planning on doing it?

the setup is ready and waiting...and I've put on fresh clothes for the journey
I am ready...it may happen any minute

 

[limone]

Yesterday I was very determined to my cbt. I prepared noosed rope, attached to a hook and placed a stool below. I removed shoes and socks and put on black t-shirt and skinny jeans. Then I spent about two hours reconsidering my decision again and chatting on sanctioned suicide forum. I was feeling very strange, being hypersensitive to all sounds and feelings. My bare feet were like on fire. Finally, when my time has come, I logged out, stepped up the stool, cuffed my left hand and noosed my neck. Then I cuffed my right hand on the back (but the key was in the jeans pocket). It was enough to make one step or just kick out the stool…But I was so scared, sweating, crying, stressed…I was feeling cold death waiting for me just nearby. This time survival instinct was stronger then me. I quitted and decided to wait few days more…