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Couldn't do it last night unsurprisingly. Don't know how I'm going to make myself do it. In also not entirely sure I did the knots right as I could feel myself slipping down a bit
 
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Ok that's helpful so if I sit down with the noose around my neck and lean forwards that will work? I just tried and I could feel myself going a bit tingly and I guess I should stay in that position.

I have one other question, does the noose have to be tight all the way around my neck? At the moment when I lean into it it's tight at the front obviously against my neck but the loop is still significantly bigger than my neck and doesn't close on its own so there is space at the back does this matter?
I believe from this point of view one needs the knot to tighten as you press against it, which retains pressure in the necessary places in case of the unconscious body moving about, which it seems it's likely to.
 
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Alright lads I'm going to try again tonight. Due to personal circumstances, my life will become a lot more difficult if I don't do it by the end of this week, preferably tonight, so I'm pretty desperate to get it done now. Hopefully the desperation will help me go all the way
 
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This might be a stupid question but does anyone know if using 2 ropes at the same time is a good idea? Put both around my neck (tied to the bar separately). Just thinking if one goes wrong with one the other one can finish the job?
 
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Alright lads I'm going to try again tonight. Due to personal circumstances, my life will become a lot more difficult if I don't do it by the end of this week, preferably tonight, so I'm pretty desperate to get it done now. Hopefully the desperation will help me go all the way

I guess I shouldn't have said what I said on your other post. I didn't read ahead so, I hope you are successful. I don't want to see you in pain. I'll see you on the other side.
 
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Couldn't do it last night unsurprisingly. Don't know how I'm going to make myself do it. In also not entirely sure I did the knots right as I could feel myself slipping down a bit

If you can't find a way to make this work then you might want to think about charcoal grill method. It's pretty easy to accomplish and less suffering from what I've been told. I wish I
Could be of more assistance to you.
 
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I don't think I can do this. I'm sat in the wardrobe but I can't do it. I can lean forwards into it but it doesn't make me go unconscious. I can slide my bum off where I'm sitting to be in a sitting position with my feet touching the floor. But I can't stay like that. I just can't make myself hang by my neck. It just goes against everything in me
 
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If you can't find a way to make this work then you might want to think about charcoal grill method. It's pretty easy to accomplish and less suffering from what I've been told. I wish I
Could be of more assistance to you.

I might have to have a go at this instead. Unfortunately time is against me right now
 
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I don't think I can do this. I'm sat in the wardrobe but I can't do it. I can lean forwards into it but it doesn't make me go unconscious. I can slide my bum off where I'm sitting to be in a sitting position with my feet touching the floor. But I can't stay like that. I just can't make myself hang by my neck. It just goes against everything in me

I wish there was a way to help you.
 
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Looks like I'm trying again with hanging tonight. No idea what I will do tomorrow/Saturday if this doesn't work. I've been hiding a secret that will basically come out then and make my life worse/known what I'm planning (not my reason for wanting to ctb, more like a consequence). I'll probably have to run away or do some desperate attempt. There's this railway that runs past the end of my road. I've always imagined I might end up dying there. Hopefully I don't have to but I can see it happening if I can't get it done tonight
 
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Looks like I'm trying again with hanging tonight. No idea what I will do tomorrow/Saturday if this doesn't work. I've been hiding a secret that will basically come out then and make my life worse/known what I'm planning (not my reason for wanting to ctb, more like a consequence). I'll probably have to run away or do some desperate attempt. There's this railway that runs past the end of my road. I've always imagined I might end up dying there. Hopefully I don't have to but I can see it happening if I can't get it done tonight


I can tell you as a previous engineer for CSXT that running over a person damages that engineer severely. I seen guys lose their sanity from hitting people. You have no idea what it does to them. I ran over a guy one time who was sleeping on the tracks. I couldn't see the dude so I didn't have that moment where you are eye to eye with that person. I've heard it's makes time slows down for you for a moment . The worst story I've heard is a guy taking a intermodal train from Chicago yard to Indiana and he hits a car with 4 females and they all die. Mom and her 3 daughters. When the fire fighters and paramedics get to the scene and go to work one of the paremedics recognizes the vehicle. It was his wife and kids! You talk about mind fucked. So before you decide the train route just remember the engineer.
 
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I can tell you as a previous engineer for CSXT that running over a person damages that engineer severely. I seen guys lose their sanity from hitting people. You have no idea what it does to them. I ran over a guy one time who was sleeping on the tracks. I couldn't see the dude so I didn't have that moment where you are eye to eye with that person. I've heard it's makes time slows down for you for a moment . The worst story I've heard is a guy taking a intermodal train from Chicago yard to Indiana and he hits a car with 4 females and they all die. Mom and her 3 daughters. When the fire fighters and paramedics get to the scene and go to work one of the paremedics recognizes the vehicle. It was his wife and kids! You talk about mind fucked. So before you decide the train route just remember the engineer.

I know mate. I did work experience at a solicitors back in school days. There was a client who was a train driver who had been out of work for something like 30 years because he couldn't work after someone went in front of the train, was still trying to get payout I think. It would been done at night and I'd come out as late as possible. This really is a last resort for me so I hope it doesn't happen. But I've struggled with other methods, this should be comparatively easier and should work. In all other respects it's a bad method though, I agree
 
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Looks like I'm trying again with hanging tonight. No idea what I will do tomorrow/Saturday if this doesn't work. I've been hiding a secret that will basically come out then and make my life worse/known what I'm planning (not my reason for wanting to ctb, more like a consequence). I'll probably have to run away or do some desperate attempt. There's this railway that runs past the end of my road. I've always imagined I might end up dying there. Hopefully I don't have to but I can see it happening if I can't get it done tonight

I can't imagine what could possibly happen to you. If you are going to be incarcerated or put in a mental ward then ya let's do this. but if it's just a bit of embarrassment then I say joke em if they can't take a fuck!!
 
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I can't imagine what could possibly happen to you. If you are going to be incarcerated or put in a mental ward then ya let's do this. but if it's just a bit of embarrassment then I say joke em if they can't take a fuck!!

It's more than a bit of embarrassment. Look ultimately I know I'm going to end up taking my own life and everything would be far simpler for everyone if I just do it now.
 
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It's more than a bit of embarrassment. Look ultimately I know I'm going to end up taking my own life and everything would be far simpler for everyone if I just do it now.

I actually feel similar. Do I stay and fight Or do I just say FUCK OFF to the world and take off. Right now I wanna sau fuck Off and go. In the morning I might feel different. I don't like living. At least I think I don't. I don't like my situation and the all the garbage I must go through to get through it. I don't like that my body has been falling apart the last few years. I was a 6'6 245 pound big strong man not long ago. Disease and stress and other things has taken most of that strength from me. I take a shit load of pills for this and that. Pain sucks. Pain meds suck worse. I'd prefer to go back to drinking in the evening. So ya tonight I'm all for CTB. If I was set up I'd be doing it.
 
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Holy shit just got far closer to completing hanging than I have before. It was tight around me, I felt tingly and like I was puffing up and started shaking. Got right up and took it off. Fuck this is going to be hard to go through with.
 
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I feel dumb for keeping on posting this, but I feel like it might be beneficial for people on here to know someone here has managed to end it. So once again, I'm about to attempt partial suspension and if I don't post within max a couple of days, it was successful (or I'm in a coma I guess)
 
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Guys I need more help please. The space I'm doing this in is not that tall. At the point the rope goes right around my neck, my bum is already touching the bottom. I can feel as though I'm about to pass out but is it a good idea to in this position, or could it make it unsuccessful?
 
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I CAN'T FUCKING DO IT. I get to the tingly point, my heart starts to beat so fast, I feel hot and then I just can't stay sat. It's as hard as trying to suffocate in a bag for me
 
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I CAN'T FUCKING DO IT. I get to the tingly point, my heart starts to beat so fast, I feel hot and then I just can't stay sat. It's as hard as trying to suffocate in a bag for me
Have you tried to do some drinking beforehand? Maybe get loaded or maybe take a Xanax or another benzo and try after drinking
 
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When I tried it I was in almost a sitting position with my legs straight forward and then my neck leaning forward into the noose. The knot was at the back of my neck. My vision became blurry almost instantly and I felt hot quickly. If I had continued I probably would have passed out. I could still breathe, but it sounded like darth vader.
How come it didn't Continue?
Sounds like you were almost there.
I plan to do this tmrw, I can't Full suspension in my house, I was going to use a pull up bar in my doorway.
 
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How come it didn't Continue?
Sounds like you were almost there.
I plan to do this tmrw, I can't Full suspension in my house, I was going to use a pull up bar in my doorway.

Survival instinct. I wasn't over the edge at that moment, but had the house to myself for several hours so I figured that would be a good opportunity. If I had been distressed, it would've worked. But I switched to a gun (hopefully it will arrive soon) so I can do it at any time without having to worry about being saved.

And good luck! Are you going to do full suspension with the pull up bar?
 
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Survival instinct. I wasn't over the edge at that moment, but had the house to myself for several hours so I figured that would be a good opportunity. If I had been distressed, it would've worked. But I switched to a gun (hopefully it will arrive soon) so I can do it at any time without having to worry about being saved.

And good luck! Are you going to do full suspension with the pull up bar?
No, like I said it's not possible for me to do full suspension or i think I said that.
I wish I would've had the courage to CTB when I owned Guns(Honestly,wasnt that Suicidal at the time, I still had Hope).
My option is partial hanging unless I go back to Dr to load up on meds but my Anxiety is so bad I can't leave my house.
The pull up bar is in my doorway it's not high so I have to kneel I have my knot ready to go, I just don't know how I should position my body, I would prefer to be comfortable but then again I'm trying to CTB so that shouldn't matter,any advice for the partial?
 
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Survival instinct. I wasn't over the edge at that moment, but had the house to myself for several hours so I figured that would be a good opportunity. If I had been distressed, it would've worked. But I switched to a gun (hopefully it will arrive soon) so I can do it at any time without having to worry about being saved.

And good luck! Are you going to do full suspension with the pull up bar?
Why did you switch to Gun?
It sounded like you had the hanging down Good.
I mean I feel like we would be completely dead in Minutes.
Maybe one minute of pain at the most?
 
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Why did you switch to Gun?
It sounded like you had the hanging down Good.
I mean I feel like we would be completely dead in Minutes.
Maybe one minute of pain at the most?

I was doing position 3. As for getting a gun, it's because I live with people. Hanging is quick, but there's always that chance of someone finding you in time even with a quick method. Some people end up being a vegetable. I know there are times people have had some kind of feeling something was wrong, checked on someone, and "saved" them.

With the gun, I can do it at any time and not worry about being found in time. I would have the right combination of being home alone and being in enough distress my survival instinct isn't a problem which I don't think has ever happened before. A gunshot to the brainstem is also the most lethal method. It would kill me instantly and it would be impossible to revive me.

Good luck with your method today. May you find peace.
 

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When I tried it I was in almost a sitting position with my legs straight forward and then my neck leaning forward into the noose. The knot was at the back of my neck. My vision became blurry almost instantly and I felt hot quickly. If I had continued I probably would have passed out. I could still breathe, but it sounded like darth vader.
Have you ever tried to choke yourself by wrapping a T-shirt around your neck and squeezing? how similar does that feel if so? (I did do that,not as an attempt,but an experiment,and I wonder how similar it is to an attempted hanging. I didn't hold long enough to pass out however,but it immediately felt uncomfortable)
 
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I was doing position 3. As for getting a gun, it's because I live with people. Hanging is quick, but there's always that chance of someone finding you in time even with a quick method. Some people end up being a vegetable. I know there are times people have had some kind of feeling something was wrong, checked on someone, and "saved" them.

With the gun, I can do it at any time and not worry about being found in time. I would have the right combination of being home alone and being in enough distress my survival instinct isn't a problem which I don't think has ever happened before. A gunshot to the brainstem is also the most lethal method. It would kill me instantly and it would be impossible to revive me.

Good luck with your method today. May you find peace.
I live alone.
I don't see a possibility of becoming a vegetable?
Makes me a little nervous.
 
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