ive tried to attempt hanging multiple times by now, I don't have a high enough place in my house so I think that's already off the table. there's a forest outside of my house and there's this tree I've climbed, tied a rope to it and tried to jump but everytime I try to jump in overwhelmed with dread and fear about how painful it would be to be unable to breathe, I don't know what to do, I wish there was a easier way to commit that wouldn't be so painful. I have been planning to buy a gun recently but I cant get one legally and I don't know anyone who could sell me one illegally. Any tips as to how I can go about this painlessly?
