Story hai everyone

[1mm0lat3]

I've been a longtime lurker for years and I finally decided to make an account to say hi. I've chosen my date (12/31) and my method will be carbon monoxide. I felt it's the most accessible to me, and not as violent as a gun to my head or hanging. :')
As far as I can remember, people have taken advantage of me and I've caused many people pain. I've ruined my future with my shitty decisions and trusting in the wrong people. My last straw was the relationship I got out of. It started off so nice and yet, turned into a nightmare, constant physical and verbal abuse and finding out they cheated on me. 3 years of life wasted, and I lost all my belongings and friends. There was some things with sentimental value from friends and family that are dead and I'll never get them back again. I'm just tired of it all. All that's left for me is a future of deadend jobs and probably being homeless after one unlucky situation.
My cat is what's been keeping me going. I feel so guilty that I'd be leaving her but I'm out of options and will. She's such a sweet angel. I wish she could've had someone else who wasn't such worthless garbage like me.

 

[itsgone2]

Hello. Sorry life has turned out this way for you. Just curious, why 12/31?

 

[1mm0lat3]

Hello. Sorry life has turned out this way for you. Just curious, why 12/31?

its okay <3 and i chose that day because i know i won't be found and saved. family will be gone for a while