had a really weird dream about attempting

[MyPropellerWontSpin]

My dreams are usually very incoherent and vague so this might not make a lot of sense but I'll try my best to explain it clearly. Just wanna preface that my preferred method was CO, isn't anymore due to varies reasons.

I was in an unfamiliar dark room, a place I've never been at before, I was inhaling CO but there wasn't really any evidence of that, no charcoal around me, but my brain knew I was. Most of my dreams feel like that, the events occurring don't entirely match up with what my brains perceiving. I felt super foggy and panicky in the dream and at some point I saw this open window which was just a few steps away from and in my mind I was repeatedly telling myself to close it because the CO was escaping, but my body wouldn't move. An awful wave of helplessness washed over me and I was scared, really scared. I think after that I woke up, if I'm recalling it correctly. It all does sound a bit stupid now that I've written it out.

It just hit me that I should probably be referring to this as a nightmare instead of a dream, lol. Anyways this has probably affected my likelihood of going through with this method, which seems irrational I know, dreams are nothing but meaningless brain activity but I just feel like I'll constantly think about this when I'm actually going through with it. And this isn't the only reason of course, I can't attempt this method in a car or a tent (the two main ways to go about it) and initially I had planned to do it in a small compartment in my closet which I thought was perfect but I live with my family and I wouldn't want to harm them, turning the fan on in my room and opening the windows might not be enough, man...I've already bought the charcoal, what a waste. But if anyone knows if it could be done without harming anyone else let me know. Thanks for reading, hopefully this wasn't all over the place.

 

[Yogih212]

I had a dream today too about CBT'ing by drinking poison, but I had a partner lol, was quite soothing funny enough ( I have SN actually and plan to use that ) Cool that you dreamt about CBT'ing too, also just strange how the subconcious start to show that more and more as it becomes more of a reality in the waking life

 

[MyPropellerWontSpin]

I had a dream today too about CBT'ing by drinking poison, but I had a partner lol, was quite soothing funny enough ( I have SN actually and plan to use that ) Cool that you dreamt about CBT'ing too, also just strange how the subconcious start to show that more and more as it becomes more of a reality in the waking life

happy to hear that urs was soothing, sounds nice :)

I too am considering SN but I really REALLY don't want to chug an entire glass (maybe even two) of gross salt water and I most definitely don't want to vomit my guts out

 

[aufrechtm7]

I wish the scientific code was cracked on dreams, it feels like they happen for a reason. I've heard of many theories about what they could be, but they'll probably always just be that.

happy to hear that urs was soothing, sounds nice :)

I too am considering SN but I really REALLY don't want to chug an entire glass (maybe even two) of gross salt water and I most definitely don't want to vomit my guts out

If I'm not mistaken there are ways to mitigate it, one user actually put it in soda and drank it quickly. I've also seen caramels suggested, personally I'm gonna try juice or soda as a chaser.

 

[MyPropellerWontSpin]

If I'm not mistaken there are ways to mitigate it, one user actually put it in soda and drank it quickly. I've also seen caramels suggested, personally I'm gonna try juice or soda as a chaser.

I think I've read something like that too, but isn't it ideal to take it with water? idk, I'll have to research more, I've consumed so much info on this site that everything feels mixed up in my head.
but thanks for replying :)

 

[aufrechtm7]

I think I've read something like that too, but isn't it ideal to take it with water? idk, I'll have to research more, I've consumed so much info on this site that everything feels mixed up in my head.
but thanks for replying :)

Yeah the water-SN solution would let it be absorbed quicker, I'm just not sure how much it matters in reality. The person who did it with soda only used about 7g iirc and it was very potent in terms of the effects.

 

[MyPropellerWontSpin]

Yeah the water-SN solution would let it be absorbed quicker, I'm just not sure how much it matters in reality. The person who did it with soda only used about 7g iirc and it was very potent in terms of the effects.

I think I remember reading that too!! I think they said that they survived only 'cause of medical intervention, it surprises me that only 7g caused such harm

 

[imontheloose]

I think I remember reading that too!! I think they said that they survived only 'cause of medical intervention, it surprises me that only 7g caused such harm

The supposed LD50 for SN is far lower than the amount in regimens. This is because regimens aim to both speed up and ensure death.

Yeah the water-SN solution would let it be absorbed quicker, I'm just not sure how much it matters in reality. The person who did it with soda only used about 7g iirc and it was very potent in terms of the effects.

Negligible. What matters is it's ingested. The choice of liquid won't hasten nor delay the process.