Had a good life.........now its ALL gone!

[TimetoGo!]

Has anyone else come from being in a good position but then lost the whole lot? I have always struggled with anxiety and mental health, but I fought through and had successful businesses, I was earning around £100k-£120k a year. Nice house, cars, holidays, clothes and a wife........but since Covid I have lost the lot, lost staff, lost all my savings and now losing my wife due to stress and bills. Will lose my house and car also.

I dream about dying every single night. I have researched for 6 months how to do it...........throw myself in front of a train? pills? my ideal way would be a gun to the head but impossible to get a gun in the UK. I've even thought about booking into a firing range just so I have a gun in my hand and then can quickly turn it on myself. Won't be nice for the people present though.

anyone have a gun for sale? will give everything I have to get hold of one.

Life just isn't worth living now.

 

[jodes2]

My life went majorly down hill when I was 20, things had been going fairly well up til then. But since then it's been suicide attempts on and off, quite a lot of misery.

Sorry COVID fucked you. That's harsh. So basically COVID has driven you to suicide? Have you looked at SN?

 

[TimetoGo!]

My life went majorly down hill when I was 20, things had been going fairly well up til then. But since then it's been suicide attempts on and off, quite a lot of misery.

Sorry COVID fucked you. That's harsh. So basically COVID has driven you to suicide? Have you looked at SN?

I would'nt say Covid has driven me to want to commit suicide, but it certainly started a chain of events.

what does SN mean? (sorry I'm new to the terminology)

 

[jodes2]

I would'nt say Covid has driven me to want to commit suicide, but it certainly started a chain of events.

what does SN mean? (sorry I'm new to the terminology)

Sodium nitrite, it's a popular way to catch the bus here, even in the UK what's needed is accessible if you know where to get it, you'll need to get your post count up so you have PMs enabled and someone can give you sources. There are better ways to go though, like if you can get nembutal or phenobarbital, but sources for nembutal have dried up at the moment. Apparently you can get phenobarbital on the dark net but I'm having trouble finding any

 

[Hope:-)]

Hi. I'm really sorry you have experienced all this. I had friends, job...a lot of positive stuff and lost it all. Now I'm financially ruined and tied to an extremely unhealthy family situation financially speaking, so I know a little about what you're describing .Wishing you the best x

 

[hamvil]

Has anyone else come from being in a good position but then lost the whole lot? I have always struggled with anxiety and mental health, but I fought through and had successful businesses, I was earning around £100k-£120k a year. Nice house, cars, holidays, clothes and a wife........but since Covid I have lost the lot, lost staff, lost all my savings and now losing my wife due to stress and bills. Will lose my house and car also.

I dream about dying every single night. I have researched for 6 months how to do it...........throw myself in front of a train? pills? my ideal way would be a gun to the head but impossible to get a gun in the UK. I've even thought about booking into a firing range just so I have a gun in my hand and then can quickly turn it on myself. Won't be nice for the people present though.

anyone have a gun for sale? will give everything I have to get hold of one.

Life just isn't worth living now.

Not sure what is the source of your loss, but you are describing pretty much my story. Had a great job, well paid and very satisfying. Lost it all because of a stupid post on social media. I now know that I will never be more than I was before and I would like as well to just stop.

 

[TimetoGo!]

Sodium nitrite, it's a popular way to catch the bus here, even in the UK what's needed is accessible if you know where to get it, you'll need to get your post count up so you have PMs enabled and someone can give you sources. There are better ways to go though, like if you can get nembutal or phenobarbital, but sources for nembutal have dried up at the moment. Apparently you can get phenobarbital on the dark net but I'm having trouble finding any

just read up about SN.........not seen that method before but a good option.

I think like most people on here, its that thought of doing it wrong in some way and surviving, but then you are stuck here brain dead or in a hospital being watched over!! that's my fear.

Thats why the Gun method is my preferred choice.

 

[jodes2]

just read up about SN.........not seen that method before but a good option.

I think like most people on here, its that thought of doing it wrong in some way and surviving, but then you are stuck here brain dead or in a hospital being watched over!! that's my fear.

Thats why the Gun method is my preferred choice.

SN has a very high success rate with antiemetics. As long as you don't get rescued

 

[jitendrabagaria786@]

Has anyone else come from being in a good position but then lost the whole lot? I have always struggled with anxiety and mental health, but I fought through and had successful businesses, I was earning around £100k-£120k a year. Nice house, cars, holidays, clothes and a wife........but since Covid I have lost the lot, lost staff, lost all my savings and now losing my wife due to stress and bills. Will lose my house and car also.

I dream about dying every single night. I have researched for 6 months how to do it...........throw myself in front of a train? pills? my ideal way would be a gun to the head but impossible to get a gun in the UK. I've even thought about booking into a firing range just so I have a gun in my hand and then can quickly turn it on myself. Won't be nice for the people present though.

anyone have a gun for sale? will give everything I have to get hold of one.

Life just isn't worth living now.

You can travel to a country where getting a gun is easy

 

[TimetoGo!]

You can travel to a country where getting a gun is easy

yes I have considered this.........although wouldn't know where to start once there!!

 

[Everlong]

yes I have considered this.........although wouldn't know where to start once there!!

Make it to the US. In Tennessee you can do a 3rd party transfer. No background check. Legally buy it from a fellow attendant at a gun show selling their personal firearm. There's one every weekend everywhere. You can't buy from a booth because they're FFL (Federal Firearms License) and they have to check you.
A little trip. Catch a show. Little TN whiskey. Then lights out.
Good luck.

 

[LowLevelChimp]

I completely relate to the OP, I ruined my life through my own actions. I'm in the process of ensuring my wife will be secure and then I'm gone. Bless everyone

 

[Hurt]

It's all gone for me. Only ctb thoughts and me. Nothing else.

 

[thebunny]

i'm sorry to hear covid was harsh on you. the pandemic really sucked - still sucks, btw. at least, in here, in my area.

but just like you, i self-sabotaged and lost every good thing i had. i mean, i was practically living my dream life. i just hate how my mind ruined such things.

i hope you find peace within yourself soon. i wish you well

 

[Funeralprincess]

i'm sorry to hear covid was harsh on you. the pandemic really sucked - still sucks, btw. at least, in here, in my area.

but just like you, i self-sabotaged and lost every good thing i had. i mean, i was practically living my dream life. i just hate how my mind ruined such things.

i hope you find peace within yourself soon. i wish you well

I was living a dream life too and then bipolar took it all away

 

[Al_stargate]

I feel you 100%. I had money (still do), self-employed with good earnings, everything I wanted and I wasted my good life because of incredibly dumb thing that I'm too ashamed to even say. Now I can only ruminate about how good it was and why the fuck did I do what I did. Mentally I'm in the bin now and not sure if I will ever recover from it. Ctb might be inevitable at some point.

 

[takemenowpls]

This is the story of my life. I had it all. Same as you. Cars, bikes big house… lost it all to mental health. And like you I offered a friend 10k for a way out. The one he had wasn't good enough. All I can say is don't do anything without a good plan.

 

[old red eyes]

Same story ..except I maintain mine is worst of the lot ...I would give every penny away to go back in time of course.....
If you have semblance of physical and mental health you need almost no money to start again ....
Beachy Head is siren call...I will get no sympathy .....and it WILL be front page news even with HRH !

 

[jane]

yep. it was my fault i lost it all though. ive just made horrible horrible decisions

 

[theboy]

Oh, what suffering. Life was very unfair to you. Covid was a nightmare with consequences for everyone.