Ach man, that's just awful, I'm so sorry. Have you tried contacting her through a medium? I know you miss her but she probably wouldn't want you feeling this way. Did your dog die too or did he have a lucky escape?
My dog didn't have a scratch on him. My wife, as I mentioned was young, 32, but she died before the emergency services arrived.
I had a similar experience with N.
Looks like you're drunk, but the effects are "heavier" and somehow a little bit uncomfortable
Yes, It's next day, and I'm still very high.
What does the n taste like?
N does taste pretty vile, you gag after even consuming 5 ML of it.
Overall, I'm convinced 200 Ml can eaaasily kill you. The effects of having 4.5 ml of the stuff was as much as drinking 360 ml of vodka, easily, or even more ? I blacked out, and I don't remember the later part of the night and I am still high after 15 hours.
If 4.5 ml of N is like 360 ml of vodka, 200 ml of N is like drinking 16000 ml of vodka, and if that doesn't kill you, then you are immortal.
Must be so devastating to lose someone like that. I'm sorry to hear that. It's really fucking unfair!
It feels a bit trivial to suggest this because there's no replacing or covering over the gap left behind, it's just that, for me I find catharsis in watching media that I find relatable to me personally. There's a show Ricky Gervais made called After Life. He loses his wife and is left feeling much as you describe, with their dog and an otherwise empty home. He doesn't want to live without his wife but sticks around for the dog for a bit. The show follows him grieving. Maybe, you might like to watch it before you pull the plug.
What's funny is my wife and I watched the first season of it together. And there's a scene where he almost killed himself, and we both thought that he should have just done it anyway. We didn't really give it much thought when we said it, but that was our first instince.
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