Venting guilt kills me

[overmorrow]

my parents, god, they make me feel so horrible and guilty for everything, I can't even ctb anymore, I can't kill myself, because guilt is stopping me

my mom, she cried to me today, and asked me if i still felt the way I felt(suicidal) we already had this convo, this isn't the first time, but today she cried and her face made me feel like the worst human being

living on guilt, how can i do that? why is this so complicated? i can't, it hurts so much, to do everything, to breath

what am i supposed to do?

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

Yeah, I'm a grownass man and I still feel bad about how it would affect my parents. They make sure I do (I've told them)

 

[fungus]

I can really relate to that. It is definetly one of the most painfull feelings, but the thing is there isn't really an answer to that problem. It is and will be painfull to your parents if you die or if you try it. I personally have grown just really tired of feeling guilty and all of this emotional struggel, so I just kind of accepted it. I know that sounds dump, but accepting I can nit change has definetly taken away some pressure, even if it is somewhat selfish.
I also tried to make small changes and get better in the moments I was not at my worst. It helped with the guilt because I atleast had the feeling that I tried everything. So even if I decide to ctb, the guilt is a little bit less.

 

[Rose923452]

my parents, god, they make me feel so horrible and guilty for everything, I can't even ctb anymore, I can't kill myself, because guilt is stopping me

my mom, she cried to me today, and asked me if i still felt the way I felt(suicidal) we already had this convo, this isn't the first time, but today she cried and her face made me feel like the worst human being

living on guilt, how can i do that? why is this so complicated? i can't, it hurts so much, to do everything, to breath

what am i supposed to do?

hey i am really sorry for how you are feeling , but can u tell me the experiance of how the parents and frends treat you after a failed attempt ? i really really dont want to fail and i want my 1st attempt to be my last attempt

 

[itsmyusername]

I can relate to that. I think it's the only feeling I've ever known and it sucks really hard.