Venting guilt kills me

[overmorrow]

my parents, god, they make me feel so horrible and guilty for everything, I can't even ctb anymore, I can't kill myself, because guilt is stopping me

my mom, she cried to me today, and asked me if i still felt the way I felt(suicidal) we already had this convo, this isn't the first time, but today she cried and her face made me feel like the worst human being

living on guilt, how can i do that? why is this so complicated? i can't, it hurts so much, to do everything, to breath

what am i supposed to do?

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

Yeah, I'm a grownass man and I still feel bad about how it would affect my parents. They make sure I do (I've told them)