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Tacoma9596

Member
Apr 20, 2025
9
We have got to figure this out. I can't continue doing the exact same things everyday. Which is nothing. I'm 45 years old and had to move back in with my parents after my 19 year marriage failed. I have no job because I couldn't handle the stress. My parents are in their late 70s and I'm scared I'm going to be homeless. I do not want to continue in this awful existence. For the record, I believe in God. I believe in Jesus Christ. I just don't believe in myself. I'm tired, scared, and miserable. There has got to be someone on this site that can tell us how to ctb in a peaceful way. Second choice is probably hanging but it looks very unpleasant. Someone please help. I don't want to be here any longer.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,973
I really understand feeling so tired of it all, I also just wish to be gone, I hope you find the peace and freedom from suffering you are searching for, I wish you the best.
 
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Tacoma9596

Member
Apr 20, 2025
9
I really understand feeling so tired of it all, I also just wish to be gone, I hope you find the peace and freedom from suffering you are searching for, I wish you the best.

I appreciate the kind words.
 
dust-in-the-wind

dust-in-the-wind

Animal Lover
Aug 24, 2024
919
Are your parents ok with you staying with them for now ? Is it possible to find a less stressful job.
 
LittleNelson

LittleNelson

Member
Dec 18, 2021
53
I can relate to what you are going thru. I don't have a job due to my depression and am living with my 76 year old mom. I know I will be homeless when she passes away. It terrifies me. I also believe in God but I am convinced he hates me.
 
FadingSnowFake

FadingSnowFake

Enlightened
Nov 25, 2024
1,823
I'm sorry for what you are going through at the moment and can relate to the feeling of repetitiveness. You are in a very stressful situation now, and it is understandable to be scared. I sincerely hope that with a little bit of time, things may turn around for you and that either way, you find a way out of Groundhogs Day.
 
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Tacoma9596

Member
Apr 20, 2025
9
Are your parents ok with you staying with them for now ? Is it possible to find a less stressful job.
They are fine with me staying here and I am looking for a less stressful job. But I need one soon. I have two kids. I'm so ashamed of how I feel.
 
maneose

maneose

天天天国地獄国
Sep 10, 2023
142
They are fine with me staying here and I am looking for a less stressful job. But I need one soon. I have two kids. I'm so ashamed of how I feel.
no matter your position, you shouldn't feel ashamed for your feelings, they're your feelings. it doesn't matter how old you are, life could fuck you over at any time. no matter what you'll still be your parent's baby, so don't feel guilty for staying under their roof. either way i hope you can recover from this <3
 
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Tacoma9596

Member
Apr 20, 2025
9
no matter your position, you shouldn't feel ashamed for your feelings, they're your feelings. it doesn't matter how old you are, life could fuck you over at any time. no matter what you'll still be your parent's baby, so don't feel guilty for staying under their roof. either way i hope you can recover from this <3
I appreciate the kind words.
 

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