Having no legal access to medication like N or something similar that can be used in overdose to end one's life is making the society a inhumane dictatorship.
Government and society does not care if your health is suffering or you eat unhealthy food. Which in the long run with kill you, but in a slow and many times cruel way. Like you would die with cancer, which is in the late stages really painful. I did research into how it is like to die with cancer like lung cancer or pancreatic cancer.
You are half dead in the hospital. Still the physicians and nurses still insisting you need more medication or they say your symptoms are normal and part of the disease.
One depends always on other people, In every decision and aspect of life such as food, knowledge, traveling/transportation, etc. And the worse thing one depends in an asymmetrical way. In a way where the other person you are depending one has more power over you. When for example you need food or to travel. You are depending on other person who is the company owner/seller. He will/can reject you because you have not enough money to pay the required price for the thing you need. But he is not really affected and he can wait for the next "customer", who can afford the thing he is offering. It's worse with employment, which is a life time thing. You don't work for sometime like in school and you are done and graduated.
I wish I could be free from all of this. I wish I could live like in the internet. This cyber world where I am at. Here in this cyber world I can be everything I want and do not depend on other people.
Society and government says they "care" about me. But they do not. They want to keep me somewhat alive to tax or generate money from my existence. Nearly no one asks sincerely why I want to end my life. No one is interested into the reasons. Also the reasons that I want to die are not that life has suffering. Or suffering is higher/worse than joy. One reason is that I am a cog in the machine. That society makes me lazy and makes me conform to be a cog in a machine. Does not allow me to really use and fulfill my potential 100%. If you do not have the luck to be born rich (I am mean multimillionaire or more) and have access to this amount of wealth because of that fact. Then there is 90% chance that you have to work for your life and will not be a self made multi millionaire. Also you pay taxes and the most amount of taxes. They do not nor. If so, a minor amount compared to the taxes you pay and what you are earning.
Please, please, I want to leave this dystopian nightmare which is called "life". WHEN does it end? The 70 years or longer if you are "lucky" that you have to life, which is called life expectancy. It is too long for me.
I can't cope anymore. I want to leave. I also suffer from physical chronical health conditions, which make living the everyday and adulting very difficult. I also fail in some aspects because of that. Which worsen my health conditions. I also I am not able to die a slow death. Where my body deteriorates slowly. I am getting blind, breathing gets difficult, less energy, pain etc.
Thank you to anyone reading this. It means a lot to me. Thank you from the bottom of my heart to all the awesome people who keep up this board and community. <3
Government and society does not care if your health is suffering or you eat unhealthy food. Which in the long run with kill you, but in a slow and many times cruel way. Like you would die with cancer, which is in the late stages really painful. I did research into how it is like to die with cancer like lung cancer or pancreatic cancer.
You are half dead in the hospital. Still the physicians and nurses still insisting you need more medication or they say your symptoms are normal and part of the disease.
One depends always on other people, In every decision and aspect of life such as food, knowledge, traveling/transportation, etc. And the worse thing one depends in an asymmetrical way. In a way where the other person you are depending one has more power over you. When for example you need food or to travel. You are depending on other person who is the company owner/seller. He will/can reject you because you have not enough money to pay the required price for the thing you need. But he is not really affected and he can wait for the next "customer", who can afford the thing he is offering. It's worse with employment, which is a life time thing. You don't work for sometime like in school and you are done and graduated.
I wish I could be free from all of this. I wish I could live like in the internet. This cyber world where I am at. Here in this cyber world I can be everything I want and do not depend on other people.
Society and government says they "care" about me. But they do not. They want to keep me somewhat alive to tax or generate money from my existence. Nearly no one asks sincerely why I want to end my life. No one is interested into the reasons. Also the reasons that I want to die are not that life has suffering. Or suffering is higher/worse than joy. One reason is that I am a cog in the machine. That society makes me lazy and makes me conform to be a cog in a machine. Does not allow me to really use and fulfill my potential 100%. If you do not have the luck to be born rich (I am mean multimillionaire or more) and have access to this amount of wealth because of that fact. Then there is 90% chance that you have to work for your life and will not be a self made multi millionaire. Also you pay taxes and the most amount of taxes. They do not nor. If so, a minor amount compared to the taxes you pay and what you are earning.
Please, please, I want to leave this dystopian nightmare which is called "life". WHEN does it end? The 70 years or longer if you are "lucky" that you have to life, which is called life expectancy. It is too long for me.
I can't cope anymore. I want to leave. I also suffer from physical chronical health conditions, which make living the everyday and adulting very difficult. I also fail in some aspects because of that. Which worsen my health conditions. I also I am not able to die a slow death. Where my body deteriorates slowly. I am getting blind, breathing gets difficult, less energy, pain etc.
Thank you to anyone reading this. It means a lot to me. Thank you from the bottom of my heart to all the awesome people who keep up this board and community. <3
