Got prescribed medication- afraid of trying them over just exiting

[confused-gemini]

Having tried quite a number of anti-depressants and finding that none of them have worked, I'm reluctant to keep trying. I don't believe in magic bullets, especially when depression is more the result of unfortunate life circumstances rather than a chemical imbalance. At least, I believe that's the case with me. My life has gone to shit because I ruined it. I'm not stuck, I'm broken beyond repair. Better to ctb than to live in misery.

I feel exactly the same I'm stuck but I don't care to change anything so I'm also ruining my life I could probably change but I don't see the point in doing so plus I've never seen a future for myself not even as a kid I think ctb has always been the only option for me.

 

[wordsonscreen]

Whilst you're sure you want to CTB, see the medication as a peaceful path towards saying goodbye.

Thank you. This is what I am doing. I've been able to sleep last few days and eat too. I want to spend my last few days enjoying physical things