Venting Got OTC sleeping pills again (my method)

[IHurtTheOneILove]

I survived an attempt with 3000mg of OTC sleeping pills but if I had not been found I would've gone into cardiac arrest and died.

It was a very peaceful exit for me as I can't remember much. This time I've bought 5000mg of OTC sleeping pills and have them hidden away as I still live with my parents.

I move out next fall to dorm but I'm not sure if I'll make it to then. I keep thinking I'm making progress, getting better, but when a goal I've been working to since 2 years ago finally happens and I feel no joy, you know I'm fucked lmao.

Maybe I'll tell some of my friends I met during my time at the psych ward that I have them to see if they could impart some words of wisdom lol. Last thing I want is another 5150 tho so we'll see what happens.

Anyways if you see another goodbye thread soon don't be shocked haha.

 

[MyChoiceAlone]

jesus. how many pills make 5k mg? i have 15mg pills that don't do a thing. so i'd need 333pills?

are you the person that got accepted into nursing school? if so, congrats! sorry i didn't say it earlier.

 

[IHurtTheOneILove]

jesus. how many pills make 5k mg? i have 15mg pills that don't do a thing. so i'd need 333pills?

are you the person that got accepted into nursing school? if so, congrats! sorry i didn't say it earlier.

98, each one has 50mg. So around 5000.

Also yea thats me thank you :)

 

[kittyswift]

what sleeping pills are you using?

 

[ama]

Im guessing youre using diphenhydramine 50mg?

 

[Ambivalent1]

Bad method

 

[Gonnerr]

Regetta malawi 2
Weber charcoal briquettes

Its been done by an non active member obviously. Thats likely how i will go. Proven method , you cannot go wrong. Maybe if i get N by miracle. I will go that way instead.

Cannot say more., do your research, good luck.

 

[IHurtTheOneILove]

Im guessing youre using diphenhydramine 50mg?

Yes, unisom

Bad method

I've heard bad things but again, it would've worked if I wasnt found. It was also quite peaceful so I enjoy that.

Regetta malawi 2
Weber charcoal briquettes

Its been done by an non active member obviously. Thats likely how i will go. Proven method , you cannot go wrong. Maybe if i get N by miracle. I will go that way instead.

Cannot say more., do your research, good luck.

I looked into charcoal for a while but I can't order a tent without suspicion soooo unisom it is

 

[ama]

Yes, unisom

I've heard bad things but again, it would've worked if I wasnt found. It was also quite peaceful so I enjoy that.

I looked into charcoal for a while but I can't order a tent without suspicion soooo unisom it is

Ive tried this way and failed. I know you say from experience that its peaceful but i found it bad. Hallucinations constantly, catheter placed because i couldnt urinate on my own anymore. Vomiting and the worst dry mouth. My body never relaxed. I couldnt sit still and the hallucinations kept me wanting to move so they strapped me down to the bed. It wasn't pleasant. Please find a better way

 

[IHurtTheOneILove]

Ive tried this way and failed. I know you say from experience that its peaceful but i found it bad. Hallucinations constantly, catheter placed because i couldnt urinate on my own anymore. Vomiting and the worst dry mouth. My body never relaxed. I couldnt sit still and the hallucinations kept me wanting to move so they strapped me down to the bed. It wasn't pleasant. Please find a better way

I had pretty much the exact same experience, but had I not been found I wouldn't have experienced the shitty parts, just blacking out and fading into nothing

 

[MusicToLogIn]

Are these the one you took or different ones?

 

[sanitystruggle]

I survived an attempt with 3000mg of OTC sleeping pills but if I had not been found I would've gone into cardiac arrest and died.

I thought you were going to use a gun? Lots of reports of big DPH/diphenhydramine overdoses leading to miserable experiences and failures as others have said.

 

[IHurtTheOneILove]

I thought you were going to use a gun? Lots of reports of big DPH/diphenhydramine overdoses leading to miserable experiences and failures as others have said.

This is a very old thread from my first attempt lol

Are these the one you took or different ones?

I took generic brand ones that were stronger concentration per pill

 

[MusicToLogIn]

This is a very old thread from my first attempt lol

I took generic brand ones that were stronger concentration per pill

Could you show me which you took?
And how much of Diphenhydramine was in your pills? (I mean the concentration)

 

[IHurtTheOneILove]

Could you show me which you took?
And how much of Diphenhydramine was in your pills? (I mean the concentration)

I don't remember the exact brand but it was just generic walgreens type pills. I checked the photo and I was incorrect the concentration was still 50mg it was just a looooooooot more pills in the bottle haha

 

[MusicToLogIn]

Where yours with gel too?
And how long where/are you sleeping if you take such a high does, lets say above 3000mg?
And what do you mean with "5150", i dont understand that sentence. lol

 

[Surfie]

I don't remember the exact brand but it was just generic walgreens type pills. I checked the photo and I was incorrect the concentration was still 50mg it was just a looooooooot more pills in the bottle haha

I know (some) people are saying this is an ineffective method but I just want to say that your thread has given me some hope that I might just be able to CTB. I'm sure I have a way of doing this without anyone finding me and I just pray that will be that. I wanted to try the SN method but I have no idea how to obtain SN and as for N from Peru or wherever I honestly wouldn't know where to start. I've never been this low and i've never been so desperate to CTB just to escape everything and everyone.

 

[sanitystruggle]

And what do you mean with "5150", i dont understand that sentence. lol

Involuntary psychiatric commitment or restraint.

I know (some) people are saying this is an ineffective method but I just want to say that your thread has given me some hope that I might just be able to CTB. I'm sure I have a way of doing this without anyone finding me and I just pray that will be that. I wanted to try the SN method but I have no idea how to obtain SN and as for N from Peru or wherever I honestly wouldn't know where to start. I've never been this low and i've never been so desperate to CTB just to escape everything and everyone.

There are quite a few reports of very unpleasant effects from large diphenhydramine overdoses on here. It's worth reading some of those threads to get more of an idea about what can happen:

For people who are thinking of using Benadryl/diphenhydramine.

Hey, I have lurked on these forums for a while and have seen multiple people discussing if they can use Benadryl/diphenhydramine to CTB. Since I have personal experience with this I felt I should say something, to hopefully convince people of a more pleasant and successful method. I have...

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Can you OD on Benadryl and fluoxetine?

Seen someone die by it recently in the news. Is it likely? From what I heard it isn’t but I’m curious what you guys think

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[pele]

Regetta malawi 2
Weber charcoal briquettes

Its been done by an non active member obviously. Thats likely how i will go. Proven method , you cannot go wrong. Maybe if i get N by miracle. I will go that way instead.

Cannot say more., do your research, good luck.

What excatly is this method ?

 

[Gonnerr]

What excatly is this method ?

Charcoal poisoning in a tent , it was done by a member in 2018. Thats what i would buy if i would choose that method but I got SN and that's how I will go.

 

[pele]

Charcoal poisoning in a tent , it was done by a member in 2018. Thats what i would buy if i would choose that method but I got SN and that's how I will go.

Is it painless ?

 

[Gonnerr]

Yes every year there is accidental carbon monoxide poisoning, just google it.

Only mild symptoms like diziness and headache.

 

[pele]

Yes every year there is accidental carbon monoxide poisoning, just google it.

Only mild symptoms like diziness and headache.

Thank u

 

[sukiduki]

I had pretty much the exact same experience, but had I not been found I wouldn't have experienced the shitty parts, just blacking out and fading into nothing

may i ask what the experience of being found was like? only if you feel comfortable sharing. were you awoken and thats when you see hallucinations and stuff?

 

[IHurtTheOneILove]

may i ask what the experience of being found was like? only if you feel comfortable sharing. were you awoken and thats when you see hallucinations and stuff?

I don't remember much in all honesty. I remember passing out with a fast heartrate, then bits and pieces of full on delusions (thinking im in my living room and seeing my neighbors while in reality im in the hospital). Eventually I regained clear conciousness and I was fine but it was a weird experience. Had I not been found I'm pretty sure I would've passed peacefully. I was found with vomit all over my shirt but i don't remember throwing up so I wont count that as a knock against OTC pills lol