Goodbye thread

[thesighofleaves]

hi everyone

So, I haven't spoken with people here much. I don't have any specific friends on here so I don't eve know if I should be making a thread like this, but well, here I am, anyway.

It's 2:15pm here. I'm gonna go after the sunset, so maybe around 8 or 9. I had my last thing to "eat" about an hour ago, a little bit of my favorite smoothie combination, blueberry and banana.

Using SN and meto, stat dosing. I have some lorazepan as well but I dunno if I should take it or when? (if anyone has advice please share)

Been trying to keep myself busy today. Wrote up a will, got it notarized. Wrote most of my goodbye messages that I just have to schedule. I still have a few things to do. I'm trying not to let myself think, because if I think, I might come up with a reason to stay, or I might get sad. I spent all day yesterday crying. I've spent years crying. I've had enough.

I'm 33. Things have been incredibly rough (to put it mildly) for 20 years with no end in sight. I'm just...really tired. I'm really fucking tired. It's been almost relentless, and so. If the world won't let me actually rest, i will do it myself.

Well, anyway. I'm gonna hover around here as i finish my last bit of things. Good luck, everyone

 

[idfwlnh]

May you see the peace that you seek for

 

[thesighofleaves]

May you see the peace that you seek for

Is your profile Furina? Aw. I loved her. Genshin is one of the few things I'm going to miss. Thank you.

 

[Macedonian1987]

I know exactly how you are feeling as I'm 39 and i have been sad and depressed ever since I was 16 years old. I am very tired of everything too.

May you be at rest and wake up in a much better world than this one. A world filled with love, understanding and peace.

 

[geepeedee]

hope you find peace.

 

[idfwlnh]

Is your profile Furina? Aw. I loved her. Genshin is one of the few things I'm going to miss. Thank you.

It's super awful that you'll miss Snezhnaya this August

 

[Matchaaa]

I'm sorry life brought you to this point, I hope you find peace and comfort.
I wish you all the best, good luck.

 

[unluckysadness]

Your post is very moving. Sorry life brought you to this point but I hope you'll find peace

 

[mlb]

Heartbreaking post. I hope you find peace, Leaves

 

[thesighofleaves]

It's super awful that you'll miss Snezhnaya this August

Heh, don't remind me

But to be honest, I'm not excited for it. It's been hard to feel excited about things in general, but when it comes to genshin I was more interested in Khaenriah, and I'm not sticking around another 2 years plus to get to it.

 

[bl33ding_heart]

May peace be upon you.

 

[sadpeach]

I hope things go smoothly for you. Safe travels friend

 

[idfwlnh]

Heh, don't remind me

But to be honest, I'm not excited for it. It's been hard to feel excited about things in general, but when it comes to genshin I was more interested in Khaenriah, and I'm not sticking around another 2 years plus to get to it.

I'd say, I think "Genshin first chapter" is gonna end in over a year, and I think we'll get to Khaenriah during our time at Snezhnaya (these names are awfully hard to remember) but either way, yeah, It's gonna be a long time ahead. If I'm still well until Kheanriah, I'll be sure to show you images of it on this post dw haha. Hope you do well!

 

[thesighofleaves]

I'd say, I think "Genshin first chapter" is gonna end in over a year, and I think we'll get to Khaenriah during our time at Snezhnaya (these names are awfully hard to remember) but either way, yeah, It's gonna be a long time ahead. If I'm still well until Kheanriah, I'll be sure to show you images of it on this post dw haha. Hope you do well!

You're so sweet haha
thank you
(and maybe a little optimistic, as I don't see genshin part 1 ending in a year, but if you're around that long i hope you enjoy it)

 

[dizzy.]

I wish you the best. Bless you. <3

 

[darksouls]

good luck, I hope you find peace

 

[CatLvr]

I sincerely hope your moving to the next world is gentle and you find the peace we all seek. While I will defend your right to choose til the day I die, I also become incredibly sad when anyone posts a good bye thread. Please know that even those of us who do not "know" you will feel the loss of your soul, and those who have had the honor to know you will miss you. Go gentle and be at peace. I will light a candle on my altar for you this evening.

 

[CaramelAppleStars]

This world is cruel. I'm sorry it has led you to this decision, but I'm glad you can take fate into your own hands and find peace

 

[glass-petal]

it doesn't matter if you've talked to people here a ton or not at all, we're all kindred spirits here at the end of the day. i hope this place has provided you with some comfort while you search for peace

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find peace from suffering.

 

[thesighofleaves]

I sincerely hope your moving to the next world is gentle and you find the peace we all seek. While I will defend your right to choose til the day I die, I also become incredibly sad when anyone posts a good bye thread. Please know that even those of us who do not "know" you will feel the loss of your soul, and those who have had the honor to know you will miss you. Go gentle and be at peace. I will light a candle on my altar for you this evening.

Thank you so much for your kindness :)