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hopelessgirl

hopelessgirl

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Oct 12, 2021
550
I hope and believe this is it. Been on this forum since 2021. And I have tried. It doesnt get better for me. Tried talk therapy numerous meds and Tms. Also been hospitalized numerous times.

I am done with life and I hate it. Now I can leave because I know I tried

I have SN but I actually don't want to go that way. I prefer going with hanging and feel confident it will be fast and peaceful enough.

I have to wait till tomorrow morning when my boyfriend goes to work. Im so done I don't even want a last meal or enjoy some alcohol or anything.

I hope it works out for you guys and I pray assisted suicide for mental illness will be available in the future and I find it so unfair it isn't.
 
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peewee

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Oct 16, 2025
351
im so sorry you've been pushed to this point, i hope you reach out for help and dont go through with it, but if you do i hope its quick and peaceful, i am planning on ctb the same way day after tomrrow, sending lots of love x
 
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letmeseethedeath

letmeseethedeath

catching the bus
Aug 4, 2018
498
I hope and believe this is it. Been on this forum since 2021. And I have tried. It doesnt get better for me. Tried talk therapy numerous meds and Tms. Also been hospitalized numerous times.

I am done with life and I hate it. Now I can leave because I know I tried

I have SN but I actually don't want to go that way. I prefer going with hanging and feel confident it will be fast and peaceful enough.

I have to wait till tomorrow morning when my boyfriend goes to work. Im so done I don't even want a last meal or enjoy some alcohol or anything.

I hope it works out for you guys and I pray assisted suicide for mental illness will be available in the future and I find it so unfair it isn't.
will you go for partial hanging or not? i'm afraid to fail, i don't know what i should use, i only have a belt
 
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FreeHer77

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Sep 12, 2025
23
I wish you nothing but peace! I'm ready to go as well. I just don't want to die alone.
 
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MissAbyss

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Jul 20, 2025
585
✨️ I wish you eternal peace ✨
 
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Irisse

Irisse

Art belongs to Maksn (on yt)
Sep 8, 2025
506
I wish you a peaceful departure.
 
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corpse

corpse

dead inside
Aug 31, 2025
250
I hope you find peace.
 
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Alice.

Alice.

~~<3~~
May 7, 2023
67
i hope everything goes well for you. thank you for your prayers, i also hope assisted suicide becomes a thing, it's kind of crazy to me how it isn't, but you know. your boyfriend will probably be really sad though lol
 
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elenaboo25

Student
Oct 19, 2025
156
i hope everything goes well for you. thank you for your prayers, i also hope assisted suicide becomes a thing, it's kind of crazy to me how it isn't, but you know. your boyfriend will probably be really sad though lol
Assisted suicide is a thing in some countries. In most places, the criteria are very strict, and people with a known mental illness very rarely get approved for it.
 
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Flubber

Flubber

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Oct 9, 2025
60
When young people (or so they seem) have such so much future ahead of them and they are already tired of life to the point of no-return, it is absolutely heart-breaking.

@hopelessgirl if there's anything AT ALL that would help you right now, please say what it is! 😰
 
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ringo99

ringo99

Mage
Apr 18, 2023
536
I'm so sorry for your pain but I hope you find the closure you're looking for. I'm close to the brink myself. I don't believe in an afterlife, but if by some weird twist of fate one does exist, the first round's on me. Goodbye
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,164
I hope you find peace from suffering, I wish you the best.
 
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marksofdespair

eidolon
Sep 28, 2025
64
best of luck on your journey.
 
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hopelessgirl

hopelessgirl

Mage
Oct 12, 2021
550
will you go for partial hanging or not? i'm afraid to fail, i don't know what i should use, i only have a belt
I will go for full hanging and I will use a climbing rope.
 
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darksouls

Illuminated
May 10, 2025
3,370
I wish you the best, I hope you find relief from suffering 🫂:heart:
 
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nobodycaresaboutme

nobodycaresaboutme

maybe my English kinda sucks
Jun 30, 2025
702
I'm really sorry you tried everything but none of them worked. I agree that euthanasia is accessible for every human regardless of physical health conditions. It's so sad you don't have this option. I hope your transition is peaceful and you finally find what you are seeking for on the other side🕊️
 
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CicisDoingUnwell

CicisDoingUnwell

𝐓𝐨𝐨 𝐌𝐮𝐜𝐡 𝐖𝐨𝐫𝐤 𝐓𝐨 𝐃𝐨. <𝟑
Aug 8, 2025
106
I'm so sorry to read this… please take care, okay? Reminder that you can back up everytime and if you feel to, call the local helpline.
Stay Strong, I understand the struggl. ❤️
 
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hopelessgirl

Mage
Oct 12, 2021
550
When young people (or so they seem) have such so much future ahead of them and they are already tired of life to the point of no-return, it is absolutely heart-breaking.

@hopelessgirl if there's anything AT ALL that would help you right now, please say what it is! 😰
Not that young. 32. Have no family and no future.
 
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hopelessgirl

hopelessgirl

Mage
Oct 12, 2021
550
So I sent a text to my former psychatrist at 3 am. It was a thank you message and I told him how much he meant to me.

And that landed me in the hospital. My boyfriend wasnt going to work anyways so I wouldnt have been able to go through with my plans.

I just wanted to let my psychatrist know how important he was to me before I went, and I was hoping for some soothing last words from him, but he called the hospital in my new town instead expressing his concern.

I dont care if I will stay here for a couple of weeks. At least I have my own room and I don't have to pretend to be normal around my boyfriend and him making my life even more like torture.

If anyone want to chat while I'm in here I would be grateful.
 
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Alexandra_

Alexandra_

Don't Fear the Reaper
Sep 30, 2023
800
Wish you all the best ❤️
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Illuminated
May 10, 2025
3,370
So I sent a text to my former psychatrist at 3 am. It was a thank you message and I told him how much he meant to me.

And that landed me in the hospital. My boyfriend wasnt going to work anyways so I wouldnt have been able to go through with my plans.

I just wanted to let my psychatrist know how important he was to me before I went, and I was hoping for some soothing last words from him, but he called the hospital in my new town instead expressing his concern.

I dont care if I will stay here for a couple of weeks. At least I have my own room and I don't have to pretend to be normal around my boyfriend and him making my life even more like torture.

If anyone want to chat while I'm in here I would be grateful.
I am so sorry you have to go through all this, get well soon ❤️‍🩹
 
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setspiritfree

Student
Oct 19, 2025
149
I hope and believe this is it. Been on this forum since 2021. And I have tried. It doesnt get better for me. Tried talk therapy numerous meds and Tms. Also been hospitalized numerous times.

I am done with life and I hate it. Now I can leave because I know I tried

I have SN but I actually don't want to go that way. I prefer going with hanging and feel confident it will be fast and peaceful enough.

I have to wait till tomorrow morning when my boyfriend goes to work. Im so done I don't even want a last meal or enjoy some alcohol or anything.

I hope it works out for you guys and I pray assisted suicide for mental illness will be available in the future and I find it so unfair it isn't.
I hope you find peace one way or the other
 

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