Goodbye thread (ctb in 26 hours)

[chuerdhmproton]

have had sn for awhile now but finally found enough motivation to proceed with ctb.

Ctb plan (basically following stat dose regimen):
Fast for 12 hours. Stop water 2 hours prior to sn.
take 600mg ibuprofen 1 hour prior.
take zofran 8mg 45 min prior.
start preparing 2 sn drinks, each 25g in 100ml water.
at midnight, drink one, second for backup.
Lay down.

I will post more updates tomorrow when I'm closer to attempt.

 

[username8888]

I will post more updates tomorrow when I'm closer to attempt.

Hope you do your best and painless ctb asap. Have a nice one.

 

[Deleted member 65988]

I wish you all the best.

 

[WAITING TO DIE]

Wishing you good luck when the time finally comes to escaping this dreadful world and hope you find the peace you deserve.

 

[CloudyNightSky]

Love your profile pic but Good journey we are here for you if you want to chat <3

 

[FuneralCry]

Farewell, I hope that you find the freedom you search for.

 

[Headspace Dweller]

Wishing you the best, I hope everything goes smoothly and you find peace. <3

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I wish you all the best, hope you find peace & freedom! Safe travels and good luck!

 

[Ε. Η. R.]

Good luck. Best wishes to you.

 

[SmollMushroom]

have had sn for awhile now but finally found enough motivation to proceed with ctb.

Ctb plan (basically following stat dose regimen):
Fast for 12 hours. Stop water 2 hours prior to sn.
take 600mg ibuprofen 1 hour prior.
take zofran 8mg 45 min prior.
start preparing 2 sn drinks, each 25g in 100ml water.
at midnight, drink one, second for backup.
Lay down.

I will post more updates tomorrow when I'm closer to attempt.

I wish you that everything goes according to your plans, and a peaceful journey.

Also, can I ask you why taking ibuprofen? Isn't it just an anti-inflammatory med?
I'm probably gonna ctb the same way and I was curious about your choice.

 

[chuerdhmproton]

I wish you that everything goes according to your plans, and a peaceful journey.

Also, can I ask you why taking ibuprofen? Isn't it just an anti-inflammatory med?
I'm probably gonna ctb the same way and I was curious about your choice.

I quoted this from vizzy guide.

• Pain killers

When SN starts to work, your blood pressure will drop. When this happens you may get a mild headache. To counteract this, any regular pain killer will stop or reduce the pain before it starts. Paracetamol or Ibuprofen will work.
Ppeh doesn't talk about pain killer in their recent release, if you are using sedatives it should be avoided because too many medications will cause vomiting.

Thanks to everyone for their kind words. I will do my best to document the sn process for me, up until when I can no longer respond.

Is there any way to change the title? Since time has elapsed it is T minus 12 hr (approximately) instead of T minus 26 hr.

Anyways, will start food fast shortly after a small snack, then no more food for approximately 12 hours. I've read 8 hours is fine but I wanted to err on the side of caution.

 

[silligant]

Good luck. I really hope it goes smoothly... how does it feel standing this close to the end?

 

[chuerdhmproton]

Good luck. I really hope it goes smoothly... how does it feel standing this close to the end?

Honestly kind of surreal, I've had fair share of battling with SI in the past. But this time I feel much more confident about actually going through with it.
I'm both happy and scared that SI has not kicked in yet, fingers crossed no SI will come for me today.

 

[Cress]

I missed a lot of my opportunities talk to people in the past. It seems like the window to speak to you will be closing relatively soon. So I suppose I'll take the opportunity to try to say that I'm sorry that I didn't speak to you more while you were around. I respect your decision and I hope that if you do go Through with this that you're suffering is low. I'm sorry for not reaching out sooner I just find it hard To reach out to people for the first time.

 

[chuerdhmproton]

I missed a lot of my opportunities talk to people in the past. It seems like the window to speak to you will be closing relatively soon. So I suppose I'll take the opportunity to try to say that I'm sorry that I didn't speak to you more while you were around. I respect your decision and I hope that if you do go Through with this that you're suffering is low. I'm sorry for not reaching out sooner I just find it hard To reach out to people for the first time.

I find it comforting enough that you choose to comment, that's good enough for me. Ultimately it is not possible to reach out every suicidal person on SS and talk with them 1 on 1, so don't put too much pressure on yourself.

 

[Weak_Nanachi]

I hope you'll have the peace you're looking for. Goodluck on your journey

 

[SuicidalAngel]

I hope you find peace and you don't suffer

 

[Some place nice]

Good luck and hope for a peaceful end.

 

[DreamEnd]

Good luck. Will you update us about the effects?

 

[chuerdhmproton]

Good luck. Will you update us about the effects?

Yes I will update as much as I can.
Was not able to eat earlier around noon, will instead have a small snack now to avoid nausea from low blood sugar, should still be fine given it is T minus 9.5 hours till midnight, still more than the recommended 8 hr fasting.
Deciding between catching a movie for the last time or going for a walk in nature, might do both if I can manage to.

 

[Deleted member 65988]

Yes I will update as much as I can.
Was not able to eat earlier around noon, will instead have a small snack now to avoid nausea from low blood sugar, should still be fine given it is T minus 9.5 hours till midnight, still more than the recommended 8 hr fasting.
Deciding between catching a movie for the last time or going for a walk in nature, might do both if I can manage to.

Do what you can to your hearts content.

 

[Oneness]

Yes I will update as much as I can.
Was not able to eat earlier around noon, will instead have a small snack now to avoid nausea from low blood sugar, should still be fine given it is T minus 9.5 hours till midnight, still more than the recommended 8 hr fasting.
Deciding between catching a movie for the last time or going for a walk in nature, might do both if I can manage to.

It's very calming to walk in nature. Sending you thoughts of comfort and peace for your journey ahead

 

[Kurai]

Best wishes and good luck to you

 

[Aim]

Good luck on your journey!

 

[CuerpoMuerto]

Hope that your nature walks is beautiful or the movie you watch is good. I will miss seeing your pfp around the forum. I hope you find peace, and sleep well.

 

[chuerdhmproton]

Hope that your nature walks is beautiful or the movie you watch is good. I will miss seeing your pfp around the forum. I hope you find peace, and sleep well.

Thanks for your kind words. I can't seem to enjoy anything anymore, I couldn't sit through the movie ended up leaving half way.

I chose the pfp because I kind of relate to capybara, they are a bit slow and dumb, but they just want to exist peacefully. Which they are great at considering capybaras manage to make friends with so many other kinds of animals.
On a side note, one thing I dislike about sn method is the fasting required. But each method has its pros and cons so it is what it is.

 

[silligant]

Oh yes, hopefully the fast isn't too rough. How many hours do you have to go?

 

[hi-okbye]

good luck and i hope you find peace

 

[chuerdhmproton]

Oh yes, hopefully the fast isn't too rough. How many hours do you have to go?

5 more hours until sn drink.
Feeling pretty hungry right now ngl, but completely bearable. I used to practice intermittent fasting so I'm kind of used to the feeling. Although I feel like my blood sugar is low because I feel faint and dizzy, and a little bit of confusion.

 

[hi-okbye]

5 more hours until sn drink.
Feeling pretty hungry right now ngl, but completely bearable. I used to practice intermittent fasting so I'm kind of used to the feeling. Although I feel like my blood sugar is low because I feel faint and dizzy, and a little bit of confusion.

how do you feel about the idea of ctb'ing now since your so close? what are you doing in the net few hours?
i'm not trying to interrogate you just making conversation :)