Goodbye thread. Been on here since 2018 and finally ending it.

[I want to end it]

It feels a bit surreal that it has come to this, but I am finally going to be ctbing. I have been on here since 2018. The site was different back then. It was newly formed, I joined only 1 month after it started. I prepared my method and I was ready to do it in September and again in October but I didn't. Life was looking better in 2019. However since the beginning of 2020, it's been getting progressively worse for me and now circumstances have forced me to do it. If I don't do it this month, I will be in very deep problems.

My method is N and I will be going tomorrow. It still doesn't feel normal that I will be ending my life but like I say, circumstances have forced me to.

Thank you for reading. I will update when I do it. I will also say what N smells and tastes like. But I can't say more than that after I take it, because I must switch off my computer before the N takes effect.

 

[jodes2]

Really sorry you're going. Mind if I ask what problems you see coming?

 

[Lily (Osako)]

Sending you love. I'm so very sorry you've been pushed into this decision.

 

[carnivore]

That's sąd,very sad.

 

[hamvil]

Safe trip.

 

[TimetoGo!]

It feels a bit surreal that it has come to this, but I am finally going to be ctbing. I have been on here since 2018. The site was different back then. It was newly formed, I joined only 1 month after it started. I prepared my method and I was ready to do it in September and again in October but I didn't. Life was looking better in 2019. However since the beginning of 2020, it's been getting progressively worse for me and now circumstances have forced me to do it. If I don't do it this month, I will be in very deep problems.

My method is N and I will be going tomorrow. It still doesn't feel normal that I will be ending my life but like I say, circumstances have forced me to.

Thank you for reading. I will update when I do it. I will also say what N smells and tastes like. But I can't say more than that after I take it, because I must switch off my computer before the N takes effect.

all the best bro

 

[I want to end it]

Really sorry you're going. Mind if I ask what problems you see coming?

Financial problems mainly which are forcing me to do it now. I will be kicked out from where I live next month. I had other problems too. Mental issues, mental illness, complete inability to relate to anyone in real life or make friends or find a girlfriend my whole life. Big decisions I messed up. It's hard to say without going into detail. I will be doing it tomorrow.

I feel embarrassed and ashamed to write a ctb note with the reasons. I might leave it and not bother with one.

 

[Shivali]

:Herz:

 

[dustyfurcollector]

I'm so sorry you're life has led you to this decision, but I support your decision and wish you safe travels.

 

[I want to end it]

Sending you love. I'm so very sorry you've been pushed into this decision.

Thanks. It's ok no need to be sorry.

That's sąd,very sad.

Yeah but it's got to happen :(

Safe trip.

Thank you!

all the best bro

Thank you!

 

[Nirrend]

May you find peace dear @I want to end it <3

 

[jodes2]

Financial problems mainly which are forcing me to do it now. I will be kicked out from where I live next month. I had other problems too. Mental issues, mental illness, complete inability to relate to anyone in real life or make friends or find a girlfriend my whole life. Big decisions I messed up. It's hard to say without going into detail. I will be doing it tomorrow.

I feel embarrassed and ashamed to write a ctb note with the reasons. I might leave it and not bother with one.

Sorry to hear that. I hope you do leave notes, or even say what needs to be said before you go. I hope you find peace soon

.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you freedom from suffering, farewell.

 

[I want to end it]

May you find peace dear @I want to end it <3

Thank you!

Sorry to hear that. I hope you do leave notes, or even say what needs to be said before you go. I hope you find peace soon

.

I'm undecided at the moment but I will decide soon if I write one.

I wish you freedom from suffering, farewell.

Thank you!

 

[jodes2]

Safe travels buddy

 

[Cryptonite]

All the best to you, respect for finally going for it

 

[I want to end it]

I hope this thread can be a resource on the taste and smell of N for those wanting to do this method. I opened 1 bottle and smelled it from inside the bottle. It smells like weak vodka to me. I will give further updates on the smell and taste of it later.

 

[Eternal_Darkness]

I hope you'll find the peace you're looking for. We're with you

 

[justanotherone2022]

Safe travel. Find peace

 

[Euthanza]

Peace be upon you

 

[tiny_dancer]

Wishing you the peace & comfort you deserve and sending love for you on your journey

 

[hellispink]

May you rest in peace. Wherever you go, my best wishes.

 

[whatevs]

I wish you luck in ending your pain and going back to wherever we were before being born. Obviously this has been meditated upon for many years. Safe travels.

 

[Lawliet]

safe travels, may it be quick and painless

 

[Dead Meat]

I'm very sorry to see you go and I want to wish you a very pleasant and comfortable journey and may you have eternal peace and tranquility you very beautiful soul.

 

[eternapeace]

Congratulations. (I mean this in a genuine way, not sarcasm)

 

[Astronauta]

Sinto muito por tudo que lhe trouxe aqui.
Que o outro lado seja gentil com você.

 

[I want to end it]

Congratulations. (I mean this in a genuine way, not sarcasm)

Congratulations because I have finally decided to ctb after a long time on the forum?

 

[Salvation_]

Good luck and safe travels~

 

[eternapeace]

Congratulations because I have finally decided to ctb after a long time on the forum?

Yes. You've suffered enough.