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hush hush

Student
May 13, 2022
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Note this is a scheduled post. If you see it, it means that I am dead or too disabled by my attempt.
My attempt took place on 23/4/2023. I hope authorities will not discover my account.
17:00 1000 mg paracetamol + 30mg metoclopramide antiemetic (syrup)+ 2mg haloperidol for nausea+ 800 mg cimetidine antacid + 400 mg propranolol beta-blocker.
17:35 Benzocaine oral solution to numb the taste.
17:40 4 tablespoons of SN in 150ml of water (plus two backup drinks)+ 300 mg of prazepam for anxiety and seizures. I know that's an overkill, but I was scared by failure stories.

I have fasted since 6:00 AM, since if I fast for too long, I will not have the energy to complete the act.

I will put 4 sheets of kitchen roll it my mouth to muffle any sounds, plus four face masks (the apartments bellow and next door are empty, but the apartment upstairs is not).
I will put a sign "I am ill, do not disturb, I will not respond", in case anyone visits my floor.

I also have an Advance Directive (as predicted by OVIEDO Convention, article 9, previously expressed wishes), although I do not expect fucking doctors to respect it, if ambulance service breaks into the apartment.

My parents will be away for at least 4 hours and I will leave a note that I am sick and slept early.

I would like to thank the mods of the forum and its members for the valuable help provided. When you want CTB, everyone is your enemy, your parents and even friends will send you to psych ward, your neighbors will call the ambulance and the doctors will resuscitate you even if you have an Advance Directive.
 
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Letgo

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Apr 1, 2023
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Hope you found peace and rest. You are being thought of.
 
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I hope that you found the freedom you were searching for, rest in peace.
 
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STEM nerd that is pro-CTB. Asmov looks far-out eh?
Apr 9, 2023
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Hope you have found peace. Enjoy your time in the afterlife or nothingness.
 
StolenLife

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I hope that your journey was painless and peaceful.
 
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The rain pours eternally.
Feb 28, 2023
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I hope you are at peace now.
 
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Apr 30, 2023
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I hope you find peace, rest well.
 
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I hope you found peace.
 
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Mar 10, 2023
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I hope you've went peacefully. Goodbye and sleep well.
 
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i'm sorry i'm trying my best
Aug 1, 2022
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sending you love and a peaceful journey đź–¤
 

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