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D&D

D&D

Write something, even if it’s just a suicide note.
Dec 3, 2021
252
I am so sorry ... so very sorry.

Wishing you nothing but love and peace.


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Silenos

Silenos

Ṿ̸̄Ọ̶͂Ỉ̶͉D̴̞͝ ̴̲̐A̷̾͜W̷̪͒Ā̵̯I̵͍̅T̵̛͔S̷̗͛
Jul 25, 2020
1,057
Don't really know what to say, except that it's a shame to see you go. Hope you felt relief in your final moments.
 
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raghu1977

Nerd
Jan 29, 2022
121
Go in peace my friend. Safe travels
 
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Midgardsorm

Midgardsorm

Paragon
Apr 28, 2020
917
I'm so sorry.

I messaged you these days, I knew how much pain you were going through. It's so sad that we didn't get to talk much.

I loved your messages, you were fantastic. Your dogs had the best mommy ever.
They / We are forever grateful for the time you spent around us. I'm sorry it took such a huge toll on you.

I should have messaged you sooner, you could have talked for a while. I'm feeling awful now. You didn't deserve this.

For all the rest of my days, I will remember you.

Shine bright, forever.

We all love you.
 
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Sanva

Sanva

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Dec 10, 2021
261
you'll be missed. safe travels.
 
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OrcWitch

Warlock
Sep 3, 2021
702
I always liked your story of being naturally tall and then 6'5+ in your work heels. I'm sorry life has been this difficult for you. I'll miss you. Goodbye.
 
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Istanbulite

Istanbulite

Member
Jan 14, 2022
564
Checking the local news in Ireland, nothing yet, maybe she decided not to go ahead...hopefully she's in peace either way
 
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Life sucks

Visionary
Apr 18, 2018
2,134
I'm sorry life was painful and made you suffer.

I wish you peace :heart:
 
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Lost Magic

Lost Magic

Illuminated
May 5, 2020
3,201
Wow, I know that she attempted Nembutal before and it was difficult for her. I hope everything goes smoother this time around. What a sweet girl who gave so much of her time to be a light in the community. I am wishing her nothing but the best on her journey to the other side.


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Pluto

Pluto

Cat Extremist
Dec 27, 2020
4,861
Farewell my friend. Your lively presence and colorful character shall be missed, but you have truly made an informed choice and no one should be forced to suffer indefinitely.
 
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Depressed Cat

Depressed Cat

Mage
Jan 4, 2022
567
This is so sad 😢 but it's quite comforting to know that A had access to the most peaceful and dignified means of CTB.

I hope she has found eternal peace! :heart:
 
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fox_wannabe

fox_wannabe

Enlightened
Jul 7, 2021
1,112
I wish you find peace <3
 
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LastLoveLetter

LastLoveLetter

Persephone
Mar 28, 2021
654
This is the second goodbye I have missed recently by someone I particularly respect and admire.

I am so sorry it came to this, A. I did not know you very well but often read your posts here and we occasionally interacted on Discord. You always came across as kind, brave, intelligent and as someone who stuck to their principles (such as your passion for animal rights). You didn't deserve the awful illness you had to live with or the pain you endured.

I am sad to see you leave, but if you proceeded with your plan, I truly hope you are at peace. You were (and always will be) a beautiful soul. Aireoidh muid uainn thú. :heart:
 
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Feeding Pigeons

Feeding Pigeons

Warlock
Aug 5, 2021
776
Farewell, I hope you find peace.
 
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roguetrader

Experienced
Feb 17, 2021
245
Checking the local news in Ireland, nothing yet, maybe she decided not to go ahead...hopefully she's in peace either way
Probably too soon for news to be out. She was concerned about media attention as the hotel is a major hotel right in the heart of Dublin. There could be news later today or this weekend.
 
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Istanbulite

Istanbulite

Member
Jan 14, 2022
564
Probably too soon for news to be out. She was concerned about media attention as the hotel is a major hotel right in the heart of Dublin.
interesting...also she may have booked two nights for privacy and put a DND sign at her door. So maybe hotel workers still don't know.
 
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roguetrader

Experienced
Feb 17, 2021
245
interesting...also she may have booked two nights for privacy and put a DND sign at her door. So maybe hotel workers still don't know.
One night. That's why she mentioned to me she had to take the N by midnight. By this time, it's probably checkout time so maybe hotel workers may know now. A few hours ago when you checked the news was a little early.
 
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AlexKy

AlexKy

Member
Dec 16, 2021
78
Safe Journey op! But if you're still with us give us a sign!
 
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Ankou

Ankou

Member
Sep 26, 2021
92
Not every suicide is reported in the news. I'm 99% sure I have her social media and name as what I believe to be her account followed me recently. Obviously I won't share it but I'll keep an eye on it
 
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WhiteRabbit

WhiteRabbit

I'm late, i'm late. For a very important date.
Feb 12, 2019
1,656
Damn, I always enjoyed her posts. It's always extra sad when a "familiar face" ctb. I really hope she had a peaceful exit.
 
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KuriGohan&Kamehameha

KuriGohan&Kamehameha

想死不能 - 想活不能
Nov 23, 2020
1,801
Wondered why she hadn't been around in a few days, it still doesn't feel real. This was really shocking to read. I pray her transition was peaceful and not at all reminiscent of her past experiences where others had put unnecessary pressure on her and made her feel uncomfortable.

A was an amazing person who held firm to her convictions, cared enormously for animals and her family, and always tried to smile and have a good time in spite of the troubles she had with her illnesses. She was beautiful on the inside and out, and knew how to appreciate the things that made life worthwhile. We lost a good one.
 
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Dot

Dot

Info abt typng styl on prfle.
Sep 26, 2021
3,259
I have been thinking about her all day, even though I have never once laid eyes on her or ever will, in this lifetime anyway.

I wish there was an "In Memoriam" post for those who would wish to be remembered after their passage. Many don't, and I respect that. But a post that could be bumped, so we could think of them and send our energy their way. Probably a silly thought and a logistical nightmare to do, but I don't care.

You are loved, wherever you are, and remembered by people all over the world ❤️
Snds lke a nce idea - u cld strt 1
 
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Meretlein

Meretlein

Moderator
Feb 15, 2019
1,199
It is surreal to see this, xLosthopex has been such on the forum for so long. I hope she rests peacefully now.

I will be locking this thread as we do not let goodbye threads go on for too long.
 
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