Goodbye - My watch has ended.

[depressedlover]

Hey Members ,Below is my sn plan now:

29F/110lb
9TH MAY 2023

Day 1	Medication and Dose
08:00hrs	1 X 10mg Metoclopramide
16:00hrs	1 X 10mg Metoclopramide
24:00hrs	1 X 10mg Metoclopramide
Day 2	Medication and Dose
08:00hrs	1 X 10mg Metoclopramide
16:00hrs	1 X 10mg Metoclopramide
23:00hrs	4 X 200mg Ibuprofen 2 X 5mg Diazepam
23:15hrs	3 X 10mg Metoclopramide (30mg in total)
23:40hrs	6 X 5mg Diazepam
24:00hrs	25g SN drink

My stat plan :

1 hour before drinking SN	2 X 5mg Diazepam
45 minutes before drinking SN	3 X 10mg Metoclopramide (30mg in total). 4 X 200mg ibuprofen
20 Mins before	6 X 5mg Diazepam
24:00	25g SN drink

After 20 mins i will drink my first SN mixture 25g into 50ml and set aside 25g into 50ml for back up incase i vomit.

Note:
I already tried my benzos to see my reaction to diazepam,on different dosage if you saw my previous post .Because i really want to make sure i'm awake enough to take a second glass if i vomit.

Fasting 18-24 hrs before SN, not planning to drink water for the last 4hours. The SN is Laboratory the 500g one,locally sourced.Planning to prepare 2 X 25g out of the 500g SN in 50ml water. The back up i will put in a closed labeled plastic water bottle ,then go to bed with a bucket on my side just in case they're needed.

I will force myself to drink it If I vomit.

I will tightly wrap,seal and hide the remaining 450g container for a future back up just in case i wake up alive like Undertaker (WWF)…Ffs i really don't want to fail this time.

I would like to thank you all for listening to me since i joined this forum.If you've been following closely you know what my plans were since the beginning.
But i hadn't plan to go this soon,after my previous post,i went to bed but even before i could sleep my uncle came to my room thinking i was asleep and tried sexual assaulting me thinking i would be sleeping (normally i use sleeping pills but today i didn't,i don't know why but let's say my love and angel might have known his plans).I dodged rape.I feel really bad that someone who knows what i'm going through has done this to me.This is the 3rd family member to attempt this to me.I seriously don't belong in this cruel world. I'm going to join my beloved fiancé.All plans will have to be cancelled.My fiancé will understand that i can't deliver my flowers because i know him how much understanding he is.
To those who tried to help out i'm also grateful even though i'm not going to give it another shot,it doesn't mean your intentions were wrong or invalid.
I would like to thank one beautiful soul @hurtingmom for listening to me and sincerely answering my questions.I wish it was possible to deliver a letter to your beloved daughter.I hope my family will forgive me,understand and let me go.
I hope after all these months of pain,sadness and loneliness i will finally join my love wherever he is and in whatever awaits me.
In love I believe,In love i have loved,In love I have cried,In love i have hope,In love I seek my love.
I know my love awaits me on the other side so I sign off with love and wish you all the best in whatever you beautiful souls are seeking.
If i don't sign in within 72hrs after taking SN which i will update,kindly do the necessary Mod.

Yours truly,
Depressed Lover
Transitioning Lover

 

[Unwr!tten]

I hope your journey is peaceful and painless? May I ask if I can pray for you to find happiness and will you be documenting your journey?

 

[leeloosnow]

safe travels my friend

 

[outrider567]

Hey Members ,Below is my sn plan now:

29F/110lb

Day 1	Medication and Dose
08:00hrs	1 X 10mg Metoclopramide
16:00hrs	1 X 10mg Metoclopramide
24:00hrs	1 X 10mg Metoclopramide
Day 2	Medication and Dose
08:00hrs	1 X 10mg Metoclopramide
16:00hrs	1 X 10mg Metoclopramide
23:00hrs	4 X 200mg Ibuprofen 2 X 5mg Diazepam
23:15hrs	3 X 10mg Metoclopramide (30mg in total)
23:40hrs	2 X 5mg Diazepam
24:00hrs	25g SN drink

My stat plan :

1 hour before drinking SN	2 X 5mg Diazepam
45 minutes before drinking SN	3 X 10mg Metoclopramide (30mg in total). 4 X 200mg ibuprofen
20 Mins before	6 X 5mg Diazepam
24:00	25g SN drink

After 20 mins i will drink my first SN mixture 25g into 50ml and set aside 25g into 50ml for back up incase i vomit.

Note:
I already tried my benzos to see my reaction to diazepam,on different dosage if you saw my previous post .Because i really want to make sure i'm awake enough to take a second glass if i vomit.

Fasting 18-24 hrs before SN, not planning to drink water for the last 4hours. The SN is Laboratory the 500g one,locally sourced.Planning to prepare 2 X 25g out of the 500g SN in 50ml water. The back up i will put in a closed labeled plastic water bottle ,then go to bed with a bucket on my side just in case they're needed.

I will force myself to drink it If I vomit.

I will tightly wrap,seal and hide the remaining 450g container for a future back up just in case i wake up alive like Undertaker (WWF)…Ffs i really don't want to fail this time.

I would like to thank you all for listening to me since i joined this forum.If you've been following closely you know what my plans were since the beginning.
But i hadn't plan to go this soon,after my previous post,i went to bed but even before i could sleep my uncle came to my room thinking i was asleep and tried sexual assaulting me thinking i would be sleeping (normally i use sleeping pills but today i didn't,i don't know why but let's say my love and angel might have known his plans).I dodged rape.I feel really bad that someone who knows what i'm going through has done this to me.This is the 3rd family member to attempt this to me.I seriously don't belong in this cruel world. I'm going to join my beloved fiancé.All plans will have to be cancelled.My fiancé will understand that i can't deliver my flowers because i know him how much understanding he is.
To those who tried to help out i'm also grateful even though i'm not going to give it another shot,it doesn't mean your intentions were wrong or invalid.
I would like to thank one beautiful soul @hurtingmom for listening to me and sincerely answering my questions.I wish it was possible to deliver a letter to your beloved daughter.I hope my family will forgive me,understand and let me go.
I hope after all these months of pain,sadness and loneliness i will finally join my love wherever he is and in whatever awaits me.
In love I believe,In love i have loved,In love I have cried,In love i have hope,In love I seek my love.
I know my love awaits me on the other side so I sign off with love and wish you all the best in whatever you beautiful souls are seeking.

Yours truly,
Depressed Lover
Transitioning Lover

I hope mine is waiting on the other side also--Godspeed

 

[EmpathyMinded]

Hey Members ,Below is my sn plan now:

29F/110lb

Day 1	Medication and Dose
08:00hrs	1 X 10mg Metoclopramide
16:00hrs	1 X 10mg Metoclopramide
24:00hrs	1 X 10mg Metoclopramide
Day 2	Medication and Dose
08:00hrs	1 X 10mg Metoclopramide
16:00hrs	1 X 10mg Metoclopramide
23:00hrs	4 X 200mg Ibuprofen 2 X 5mg Diazepam
23:15hrs	3 X 10mg Metoclopramide (30mg in total)
23:40hrs	2 X 5mg Diazepam
24:00hrs	25g SN drink

My stat plan :

1 hour before drinking SN	2 X 5mg Diazepam
45 minutes before drinking SN	3 X 10mg Metoclopramide (30mg in total). 4 X 200mg ibuprofen
20 Mins before	6 X 5mg Diazepam
24:00	25g SN drink

After 20 mins i will drink my first SN mixture 25g into 50ml and set aside 25g into 50ml for back up incase i vomit.

Note:
I already tried my benzos to see my reaction to diazepam,on different dosage if you saw my previous post .Because i really want to make sure i'm awake enough to take a second glass if i vomit.

Fasting 18-24 hrs before SN, not planning to drink water for the last 4hours. The SN is Laboratory the 500g one,locally sourced.Planning to prepare 2 X 25g out of the 500g SN in 50ml water. The back up i will put in a closed labeled plastic water bottle ,then go to bed with a bucket on my side just in case they're needed.

I will force myself to drink it If I vomit.

I will tightly wrap,seal and hide the remaining 450g container for a future back up just in case i wake up alive like Undertaker (WWF)…Ffs i really don't want to fail this time.

I would like to thank you all for listening to me since i joined this forum.If you've been following closely you know what my plans were since the beginning.
But i hadn't plan to go this soon,after my previous post,i went to bed but even before i could sleep my uncle came to my room thinking i was asleep and tried sexual assaulting me thinking i would be sleeping (normally i use sleeping pills but today i didn't,i don't know why but let's say my love and angel might have known his plans).I dodged rape.I feel really bad that someone who knows what i'm going through has done this to me.This is the 3rd family member to attempt this to me.I seriously don't belong in this cruel world. I'm going to join my beloved fiancé.All plans will have to be cancelled.My fiancé will understand that i can't deliver my flowers because i know him how much understanding he is.
To those who tried to help out i'm also grateful even though i'm not going to give it another shot,it doesn't mean your intentions were wrong or invalid.
I would like to thank one beautiful soul @hurtingmom for listening to me and sincerely answering my questions.I wish it was possible to deliver a letter to your beloved daughter.I hope my family will forgive me,understand and let me go.
I hope after all these months of pain,sadness and loneliness i will finally join my love wherever he is and in whatever awaits me.
In love I believe,In love i have loved,In love I have cried,In love i have hope,In love I seek my love.
I know my love awaits me on the other side so I sign off with love and wish you all the best in whatever you beautiful souls are seeking.

Yours truly,
Depressed Lover
Transitioning Lover

You seem like you've thought things through carefully and made an informed choice. I'm sorry for what you've had to go through, and that I never got the chance to know you. You seem very sweet. Wish there were more like you in the world. As it is, I'll carry your memory of you the best I can, such as I have it.

 

[anonaon]

Good luck, I hope you find peace

 

[Per Ardua Ad Astra]

Per ardua ad astra

 

[Endex]

I'm deeply sorry to read of the pure hell you have endured. I wish you a peaceful journey to your love who awaits you.

 

[Fl4u]

I hope it will be quick. All the best... I will join you soon.

 

[GasMonkey]

See you on the Other Side.

 

[depressedlover]

I hope your journey is peaceful and painless? May I ask if I can pray for you to find happiness and will you be documenting your journey?

You can definitely pray for my soul,i'm a christian not a staunch one though.I don't know yet but i might post the updates.

 

[FuneralCry]

Farewell, I wish you the best with your plans and I hope that you find freedom from your suffering.

 

[depressedlover]

You seem like you've thought things through carefully and made an informed choice. I'm sorry for what you've had to go through, and that I never got the chance to know you. You seem very sweet. Wish there were more like you in the world. As it is, I'll carry your memory of you the best I can, such as I have it.

It's what i wanted ,i'm just angry and bitter that someone had to do this to me,considering how hurt i already am.Thanks for your sweet words,it means alot during these last moments.I wish you all the best in life at tc.

 

[terminatepain]

I whish you a plesent trip

 

[pompompurin]

Farewell and godspeed.

 

[PurpleParadigm]

I am sorry to see you go, truly. I believe we interacted a few times on here. It looks like you are making a well thought-through and informed decision. Safe travels and may you find peace.

Also may your uncle face eternal torture and suffering both in life and in death.

 

[bogota11]

Goodbye and good luck. I hope you find your peace, and your love on the other side.

 

[depressedlover]

I am sorry to see you go, truly. I believe we interacted a few times on here. It looks like you are making a well thought-through and informed decision. Safe travels and may you find peace.

Also may your uncle face eternal torture and suffering both in life and in death.

Thanks,I wish you too all the best in this world.I leave karma deal with him.

 

[Valky]

We've only interacted a few times but I can tell that you are a kind soul.

I am so so sorry for what has happened to you and that this world could not keep you safe.

Whatever division you make, it is valid and I wish you nothing but the best <3

Safe travels my friend <3

 

[just_so_done]

I'm so sorry for what you went through, no one deserves to be put through such pain and anguish. I hope you find the peace you're looking for

 

[depressedlover]

We've only interacted a few times but I can tell that you are a kind soul.

I am so so sorry for what has happened to you and that this world could not keep you safe.

Whatever division you make, it is valid and I wish you nothing but the best <3

Safe travels my friend <3

Thanks Val.As i told you before,continue being the strong person you are and don't cease helping others out as you have been doing but don't forget about yourself in the process.You're such a kind soul,one of those i will always look out for wherever my journey leads to.I wish you the best.

 

[sorrowful]

safe travels, i hope you get your peace

 

[AerialBoundaries]

It seems like your plans are in place. I'd never encourage someone to do it impromptu, but it seems like you're ready. All the best.

 

[Vizzy]

Thanks Val.As i told you before,continue being the strong person you are and don't cease helping others out as you have been doing but don't forget about yourself in the process.You're such a kind soul,one of those i will always look out for wherever my journey leads to.I wish you the best.

Hope you are okay and find peace in the process, everything will go as you planned

You mentioned two methods with two different tables, which one you gonna follow ?

 

[depressedlover]

Hope you are okay and find peace in the process, everything will go as you planned

You mentioned two methods with two different tables, which one you gonna follow ?

One is stans regime and the stat.
If you search more about Stans regime you'll find more info,i'm sorry i can't tell you more but you can use your search option to research more on SN and stan guide.

 

[DreamEnd]

have a good trip, keep us posted if you want, all information about sn symptoms is valuable

 

[depressedlover]

have a good trip, keep us posted if you want, all information about sn symptoms is valuable

I will try as much as i can until i'm unable to continue,because i know i might be helpful to someone who will use the same ingredients in future.

 

[cherrysquick]

im so sorry for everything you went through, i hope you find peace :( good luck

 

[DreamEnd]

I will try as much as i can until i'm unable to continue,because i know i might be helpful to someone who will use the same ingredients in future.

yes thanks your feedback will be very helpful, are you planning to go tonight or tomorrow?

 

[Valky]

Thanks Val.As i told you before,continue being the strong person you are and don't cease helping others out as you have been doing but don't forget about yourself in the process.You're such a kind soul,one of those i will always look out for wherever my journey leads to.I wish you the best.

Don't make me cry now :(