Goodbye & good luck!

[rationaltake]

Goodbye and good luck.

 

[stygal]

Hope you will have lots of good memories and times in real life.

Always liked your posts, glad it's a success story/"happy ending"

 

[UpandDownPrincess]

I hope you find whatever you are seeking. Having a special person definitely helps.

Warm hugs and warm regards!

Jennifer

 

[whatevs]

I enjoyed his sense of humour. I wish him the best.

 

[Eternally Dottie]

I think I hit my lowest point when I was so sure I was a goner that I stopped eating & racked up a million posts in a week playing silly forum games in my underwear.

I'm not gonna ctb in the foreseeable future, I love my partner & he makes living with my traumas bearable. Btw, a big, fat fuck you to everyone who felt the need to tell me it's impossible for us to be reasonably happy because I have hypersexuality disorder & our marriage is open. You don't know how strong a bond between two traumatized people who've experienced sexual abuse & who've only ever been truly intimate with each other can be. I'm not some selfish tool whose goal is to fuck as many guys as possible. Look up HD & learn that it's classified as a form of OCD.



Thank you. I'm not always kind, I can be an annoying smartass. I'm capable of apologizing & I don't think I'm cruel, but the wisest man on SS did basically call me a shameless POS that's just "sly & manipulative enough to avoid disciplinary action", so I might actually be a psychopath. That's not why I'm leaving, though:

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/i-dont-know-what-im-still-doing-here.83401/



If I return, it'll be only to read bookmarked stuff & to post songs & lyrics & (other people's) poems that almost nobody reads. I have nothing left to say on here using my own words. I'll always have more than enough horrible shit of my own to deal with & I can no longer afford to interact with tormented people I'm unable to help (& bad apples & their cruelty make me sick).

Thank you for all the love & support, everyone. I sincerely wish you well.

Well, I always pay attention to your posted songs, lyrics and words as I appreciate what you post and we have a similar (great!!) taste in music . Your presence here will definitely be missed but if leaving is the best thing for your health and happiness then I wish you contentment and a fulfilling life in the future

 

[motel rooms]

Hope you will have lots of good memories and times in real life.

Always liked your posts, glad it's a success story/"happy ending"

Thank you... I haven't seen you around in a while, I hope that means you're doing well. When people mention happy endings, this song always starts playing in my head & I start fantasizing about disappearing into a beautiful black void with my lover. I've mastered warm smiles, but I can't for the life of me fake any sort of optimism. It's not truly sexy unless you're both so desperate for affection & terrified of losing each other, which is inevitable because life kills love, that you're on the verge of tears even when things get really naughty. That's normal & healthy, right?

Drown in me one more time
Hide inside me tonight
Do what you want to do
Just pretend, happy end
Let me know, let it show
Ending with letting go
Ending with letting go...
Let's pretend, happy end...
Let's pretend, happy end...

 

[stygal]

Thank you... I haven't seen you around in a while, I hope that means you're doing well. When people mention happy endings, this song always starts playing in my head & I start fantasizing about disappearing into a beautiful black void with my lover. I've mastered warm smiles, but I can't for the life of me fake any sort of optimism. It's not truly sexy unless you're both so desperate for affection & terrified of losing each other, which is inevitable because life kills love, that you're on the verge of tears even when things get really naughty. That's normal & healthy, right?

Drown in me one more time
Hide inside me tonight
Do what you want to do
Just pretend, happy end
Let me know, let it show
Ending with letting go
Ending with letting go...
Let's pretend, happy end...
Let's pretend, happy end...

I really like your music&poem posts - you always seem to find one for every occasion.

Im not doing as bad as I did when I joined - but life is mostly ebbs and flows - never dare to imagine myself completely care-free, healed and happy. Like you: not an optimist - but instead of being pessimistic I now stay completely realistic and look at what I can still do with the (mostly shitty) options that were handed to me.

You seem to have found yourself a kind of fitting situation with your husband others can only dream about. I really wish you a lasting journey together.

Take care...or keep posting (If your addiction is too strong :D)

 

[Pain In The Ass]

Motel Rooms is an awesome name, if I have understood it's meaning correctly!

 

[pixie]

Love to you

 

[motel rooms]

I really like your music&poem posts - you always seem to find one for every occasion.

I tend to think in lines from songs & poems for some reason.

Im not doing as bad as I did when I joined - but life is mostly ebbs and flows - never dare to imagine myself completely care-free, healed and happy. Like you: not an optimist - but instead of being pessimistic I now stay completely realistic and look at what I can still do with the (mostly shitty) options that were handed to me.

I'm convinced optimism is dangerous. It's a recipe for disaster to teach children to dream too big & completely ignore their limitations, & it's ridiculous & cruel to tell those of us who are familiar with the dark side of life to think only happy thoughts.

You seem to have found yourself a kind of fitting situation with your husband others can only dream about. I really wish you a lasting journey together.

I'm lucky, I really am. He's a genuinely good man. Too good for his own good, in fact, but I'm gonna fix that. He needs a benevolent dictator to gradually eliminate all the scumbags from his life & force him to like & respect himself. I'm only half joking, ofc. Those two pals of yours who were always borrowing money from you have both stopped texting you? No kidding? I wonder why...

People develop a deep appreciation for clean water after being forced to drink muddy crap for years, so I think we have a much better chance of staying together than some spoiled normie couple. We've both seen it all & then some, & we don't take anything for granted. Nothing but him & his small victories can make me smile. All kinds of stuff can make me laugh, but only he makes me smile.

Take care...or keep posting (If your addiction is too strong :D)

No, I have to protect myself. I'm sure you know what I'm talking about. It's hard to witness other human beings' suffering without being able to help them. I'm not exactly a tortured empath, but I do get attached to people more easily than I let on. I'm only gonna occasionally post songs & lyrics from now on even if withdrawal gives me the shakes. All the best...

 

[EdibleGasMask]

Wishing you luck also in this world, everyone needs it nowadays. Its good for someone who doesn't need this site to leave it, even though youre one of the funniest and also rational people here, its still good to see you leave on a more positive note.

 

[sadstargazer231]

Peace to you.