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CaliCatCharlie

CaliCatCharlie

Nature's Mockery
May 28, 2021
70
I'm finally CTB tonight, it was nice being here for the time. Hopefully I succeed this time. If not I'll be back.
 
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aminend

aminend

Warlock
May 24, 2020
746
I hope u luck. Whats ur method
 
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CaliCatCharlie

CaliCatCharlie

Nature's Mockery
May 28, 2021
70
My method is partial hanging.
 
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OnlyTheWind

OnlyTheWind

Serena / Meatball head
Aug 29, 2020
962
If this is it, I hope the darkness takes you quickly and your exit is painless.
 
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CaliCatCharlie

CaliCatCharlie

Nature's Mockery
May 28, 2021
70
Thanks y'all just need to shower and I'll be on my way.
 
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Werewolf.

Student
May 28, 2021
183
I'm sorry it's come down to see. For what it's worth, I kind of do hope you'll be back. You're younger than me and seeing you go out this way is painful. Also, I see we have the same join date.
 
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CaliCatCharlie

CaliCatCharlie

Nature's Mockery
May 28, 2021
70
So update, I took an edible so I can be relaxed when it happens. Just kind of waiting for it to kick in now.
I'm sorry it's come down to see. For what it's worth, I kind of do hope you'll be back. You're younger than me and seeing you go out this way is painful. Also, I see we have the same join date.
It is sad, but I kind of realized that I won't ever get any further than where I am right now.
 
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SheJumped

SheJumped

Student
May 14, 2019
143
If you're young I do encourage you to give it sometime. I understand why we're all here but there could be a few experiences waiting to be had.
With that, if you do move forward with your choice I hope for a safe and peaceful journey.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,689
If this is your choice, then I wish you peace.
 
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CaliCatCharlie

CaliCatCharlie

Nature's Mockery
May 28, 2021
70
Been trying to avoid this all morning but my method didn't go as planned. Need to adjust my method more. Feeling like a failure right now.
 
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Wisdom3_1-9

he/him/his
Jul 19, 2020
1,939
Don't make yourself feel worse. Things didn't go as planned. That's okay. If the time wasn't right, it wasn't right. Sometimes, it takes a few failures to provide us with clarity.
 
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pole

Enlightened
Sep 18, 2018
1,385
Been trying to avoid this all morning but my method didn't go as planned. Need to adjust my method more. Feeling like a failure right now.
sorry about what's happening with your plans.

you aren't a failure at all. its okay to hold it off, instead of being impulsive and forcing your hand, which is when things go wrong.

CTBing itself is a very hard thing to do. outside of the method and the planning, the act itself is just tough and takes a lot out of you.

the majority of people on this forum have been in the same position as your in, and it's okay not to go through with it, whether it's because of planning or method stuff.

if anything, i hope things turn around for you. nonetheless, wishing you the best with whatever you choose to do.

take care.
 
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not-2-b-the-answer

not-2-b-the-answer

Archangel
Mar 23, 2018
10,557
Like others have said. There is no shame in not succeeding. I came close a few times and couldn't go through with it. 2 were very close. Unfortunately I'm still here. I wish you the best and hope you are able to find peace.
 
SuicideRun

SuicideRun

Member
Jun 11, 2021
76
Been trying to avoid this all morning but my method didn't go as planned. Need to adjust my method more. Feeling like a failure right now.
Don't feel like a failure, however planned and desired it remains a very difficult thing to do.
 
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Werewolf.

Student
May 28, 2021
183
So update, I took an edible so I can be relaxed when it happens. Just kind of waiting for it to kick in now.

It is sad, but I kind of realized that I won't ever get any further than where I am right now.
I feel that way, too. I have been standing still for years. Everyone else has gotten so far ahead of me now, even those who are younger than I am. Also, I read your last post in this thread. Don't feel bad. Maybe you can use this time to think more about what you are planning on doing. Maybe even during the meantime things will get better. Who knows. If you need to talk, my PMs are always open.
 
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