Skyview
Going Blue
- Dec 9, 2019
- 473
You worked extremely hard , long hours and now the time has come for rest , be safe on your hike to your favorite spot and wishing you a peaceful journey 
Jean4
Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
- Apr 28, 2019
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Farmmaa
Specialist
- Dec 4, 2019
- 343
I'm OK.... Just tying up some last minute things around the house - finishing up a pet portrait I'm doing for a friend.
I will check in as much as I can before I head out
Best of luck to you on your way out. It sounds like you at least should be comfortable. It's a method that is appealing to me, but I don't know where to get the materials without putting myself at legal risk, which I think is something I'd like to avoid. I think you will have a more peaceful passing than 95% of people, or at least it seems you will. Here's to peaceful vibes on your last day.
Jean4
Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
- Apr 28, 2019
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Farmmaa
Specialist
- Dec 4, 2019
- 343
From all accounts, it is an extremely peaceful way to go
Anyone who has OD'd says the same thing - they took the drug, felt wonderful, started to nod off.... and nothing until they were jolted awake by paramedics.
So... just avoid paramedics.
We are here for you.
And, it is a great comfort knowing that
Not going to lie - I'm exhausted. Not just today, but for several years now. My body is just tired.You worked extremely hard , long hours and now the time has come for rest , be safe on your hike to your favorite spot and wishing you a peaceful journey
I'm so sorry to hear you are going and that your suffering has led you to this. I salute your courage.Just a random update - Obviously didn't sleep well last night and have a raging migraine today - to be expected.
There is a raging snowstorm outside right now... yay. But, it should keep more people indoors and away from my peaceful place, and the new snow should make it even more beautiful.
Bought myself some nail polish yesterday and after a long hot shower.... and very much needed leg shave... I will be giving myself a pedicure for the first time in years. I spend every day in work boots and wool socks, so never bother any more.
I've decided not to worry about the lack of benzos. Even if the F I bought is really cut, there's still plenty to OD on and I want people to know if this method really works.
At the very least, it will lower my heart rate nd breathing to dangerous levels and unless I am somehow found within the first few hours, the cold weather coming tonight should cause hypothermia fairly soon.
And... if anyone is wondering - the photos on my post are of the tattoo I got two years ago to honor my brother and niece.
Now I have that Tom Petty song in my head.
Farmmaa
Specialist
- Dec 4, 2019
- 343
It's a good song to have stuck in your head. It was my brother's favorite
Just know that you can turn back if it doesn't feel right. It's totally up to you, either way. Wishing you well does not imply any sort of pressure whatsoever. This forum is about support, not about convincing anyone of anything.
Farmmaa
Specialist
- Dec 4, 2019
- 343
Jean4
Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
- Apr 28, 2019
- 7,557
I am so sorry to hear what you have been through. Sometimes , there is no respite from pain and suffering no matter how hard we try. It is really exhausting. I hope you have a painless transition to a place where you can finally rest and be at peace.
Farmmaa
Specialist
- Dec 4, 2019
- 343
Just going to pamper myself a little - shower, shave, clean up.. put my hiking clothes on and then will check in with everyone before I leave the house !
Note to self: Do NOT clear your computer before you need to access your on line banking info. Took me an hour to get on to my bank site because I couldn't reset the damn password. Doh.
Note to self: Do NOT clear your computer before you need to access your on line banking info. Took me an hour to get on to my bank site because I couldn't reset the damn password. Doh.
Jean4
Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
- Apr 28, 2019
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enjoy
Creature
- Dec 20, 2019
- 337
Schadenfreude
Member
- Dec 23, 2019
- 66
EmptyArms
Student
- Dec 1, 2019
- 148
I'll be thinking of you patting your sweet dog on some other plane Farmmaa. I hope your brave journey takes you there swiftly and smoothly. With love.
Farmmaa
Specialist
- Dec 4, 2019
- 343
wishing you peace.
I will ! And, we Canadians can not forget about Gord Downie.
I little bit of anxiety, but no more than the last few weeks really.
Kept myself busy doing last minute stuff around the house.
I'm OK.
Starrywaters
Member
- Dec 10, 2019
- 67
I'm sorry for everything that led you hear. I'm sending you peace and I Hope should you go that your gorgeous pup is waiting to meet you - wherever we may go.
Farmmaa
Specialist
- Dec 4, 2019
- 343
OK all of my beautiful, sorrowful and misunderstood misfits of society.....
Just waiting for the washer to finish spinning so my clothes don't get all musty and gross.
Then I am off.
I am doing this without benzos or alcohol because I want it to be as 'accidental' as possible.
By all means, if you don't care about that.... every extra ounce of insurance helps.
I'm not afraid at all because I know it will be ridiculously peaceful and painless. I'm looking forward to having Jayda meet me at the end of the trail.
My only fear is that of not dying. That terrifies me.
So... I have my long johns on, my wool socks, sweaters, touque and mitts in my backpack... granola bars and juice to make the hike look legit.
All that stands in my way is all of this damn snow!!!
Several people are on media watch.
This will go one of three ways -
I will drive into the ditch on my way up there and be back home tonight.
I will find my seclusion and everything will go as planned and you won't hear from me again.
I will fail and be 'saved' and will check back here once I'm out of hospital and functioning again.
Love you all and hope that you all find what you're looking for !
Give life as many chances as you possibly can... believe it or not, there is a lot of beauty to be found.
Just waiting for the washer to finish spinning so my clothes don't get all musty and gross.
Then I am off.
I am doing this without benzos or alcohol because I want it to be as 'accidental' as possible.
By all means, if you don't care about that.... every extra ounce of insurance helps.
I'm not afraid at all because I know it will be ridiculously peaceful and painless. I'm looking forward to having Jayda meet me at the end of the trail.
My only fear is that of not dying. That terrifies me.
So... I have my long johns on, my wool socks, sweaters, touque and mitts in my backpack... granola bars and juice to make the hike look legit.
All that stands in my way is all of this damn snow!!!
Several people are on media watch.
This will go one of three ways -
I will drive into the ditch on my way up there and be back home tonight.
I will find my seclusion and everything will go as planned and you won't hear from me again.
I will fail and be 'saved' and will check back here once I'm out of hospital and functioning again.
Love you all and hope that you all find what you're looking for !
Give life as many chances as you possibly can... believe it or not, there is a lot of beauty to be found.
Grandexit
Experienced
- Dec 4, 2019
- 200
Be safe. Be well. You will be missed. Selfishly I'm hoping to see you back. All my best to you.
EmptyArms
Student
- Dec 1, 2019
- 148
less than
not important
- Jul 25, 2019
- 195
Tempeste
Member
- Jan 11, 2020
- 60
Skyview
Going Blue
- Dec 9, 2019
- 473
Wishing you a safe journey ahead once again.
I feel certain you are heading somewhere beautiful....
I feel certain you are heading somewhere beautiful....
TheOA
Student
- Jan 5, 2020
- 101
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