Venting Gone

[ixkitty]

The one person that supported me.. I don't know what I'm going to do without him. He can live without me just fine but now I have no one. Someone asked me to tell them why I'm wanting to CB.. then he proceed to tell me why he disagree with the points I'm making.. He's a fucking idiot and he doesn't understand what he's doing wrong... He's not really an idiot I'm just really frustrated at him. REgardless now I'm sitting in my char and cutting and crying because I can't handle this pain anymore. I'm still alive because of cripling anxiety and I wish I could just... stop it all! Maybe if I can get on the strongest bipolar med they have... maybe I'll care less... maybe I can CTB then. I just wish I could cut my heart out.

 

[katara]

I wish I had something to take it away bc it's terrible overthinking things and being unable to function. I was trying to take small steps but I stopped and now I'm out of practice, it's really hard bc there's so many bugs here and I want to just practice walking around so I could finally take the first step to getting out of here. Is this something you struggle with as well?