Going to try ctb again

[lifewasawillowtv]

Going to try ctb again sometime soon, hopefully it actually works this time. I don't think I could cope with another failed attempt

 

[Praestat_Mori]

What's your method? (If I may ask that)

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope that you find the peace you search for, best of luck with your plans.

 

[lifewasawillowtv]

What's your method? (If I may ask that)

Partial hanging

Ah yes you're trying to hang yourself out to dry. I hope you get what you want but if not then tell us all about it. At least you're trying.

"Hang yourself out to dry" is so unserious to me idk why but I love it

 

[CouldaHvBeenARock]

Partial hanging

I hope you succeed

Oh and if you haven't please practice a tone cause I failed my partial

 

[Gonnerr]

Good luck, I hope you escape peacefully.

 

[lifewasawillowtv]

I hope you succeed

Oh and if you haven't please practice a tone cause I failed my partial

What happened if u don't mind me asking?

 

[CouldaHvBeenARock]

What happened if u don't mind me asking?

Well partial hanging is all about technique, given it's low success rate compared to full

These are all the mistakes I made

Overcoming SI
Don't be sober if you struggle with SI
I took sleeping pills

Or try to get used to the high
But I didn't feel a high

Ligature width
I thought wider was better
Cause I didn't need extra padding
All I did was pass out and woke up convulsing

Later on
I built a rope from fabric
And I ensured it was the width of a finger
I thought it would be suspicious to buy rope

Jugular Vs Carotid
I never practised finding my sweet spot
So in the beginning
I would compress the Jugular veins
And end up feeling like my head was about to explode

Once I found my sweet spot
Even though I failed
I did not experience much discomfort
But my neck was a bit sore

Difference between Full and Partial
I failed because of my ligature position

Full suspension
Ligature should be around two finger widths above your Adams apple
Use a scarf or whatever to find your sweet spot
You should feel like your passing out

Partial suspension
Ligature should be around two finger widths below your Adams apple
Again look for that sweet spot

Extra(From watching state issued hangings)
Hood over my head
Find a way to tie my legs and restrict my hands to reduce noise

Let's just say they're was a lot of trial and error which led to many failed attempts and getting caught cause of a misfired email

This is a great resource that I found https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...-like-to-share-it-with-this-community.100336/