The rope is 8mm, polyester braided and 10m long. I've used a light cotton cloth to reduce any potential friction. Also, I've gone for a noose knot instead of a hangman because I felt like it constricts better.
Here is the bowtie knot for securing the rope to the anchor:
First of all, are there any issues (however minor) with my setup; the rope, the knots or the cloth?
Secondly, must I go for FSH, or partial (tied to the window grid)? If the latter, must I tie it up high (with my feet barely touching the ground), or low (kneeling down forward)? I surely won't be discovered at least for half an hour.
Earlier on today, I attempted pulling the rope above my head with my right hand, and I seemed to feel light-headed and my vision blurring before 10s. As for pain mitigation, these are the ways I found:
(i) Never try to swallow your saliva. Either do it before the rope tightens, or try to spit it away. Swallowing is quite painful with the rope constricted because of how the Adam's apple moves up, thereby getting squeezed under the pressure.
(ii) Always try to get your heart-rate to relax, ventilating well and inhaling strongly before tightening the rope. I've found that practising ways to hold your breath for longer helps a lot.
It's my first (and hopefully the last) time attempting suicide. It's an entirely rational decision with no impulsive emotions involved. Everything that happened today was methodological and maybe even ever so slightly blissful.
I would appreciate more suggestions (to increase effectiveness / reduce discomfort) before I leave in around 50 hours. Thanks!
PS; I weigh just about 50kg, quite skinny. Does my weight decrease the chance of me passing out soon due to reduced pressure?
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