Discussion going to CTB after summercamp

[misanthropemurder]

i think i've finally decided on a date and method. this is something that's been a long time coming. i plan to do a partial hanging, it's not my preferred method but it's going to have to do with what i have available. i don't plan on writing any notes, if i do it will be one big note for everyone who ever knew me, rather than something too personal.

i just feel truly sorry for those in my life who i feel actually care about me. i don't know how my death will affect others; even when i feel unwanted this is still something i would often think about. will my death send a loved one into depression? would i just be passing along my pain? i dont know, and i never will, but in all honesty i just want to be forgotten completely. i'm so tired.

 

[Holu]

Best of luckies too you. Make sure you are well prepared if going the partial route. I'm sorry for the suffering you have endured. Hope all goes well and that your summer camp is calm and enjoyable

 

[darksouls]

however you decide
I wish you a pleasant time at summer camp

 

[Box]

good luck, hope everything works out for u

will my death send a loved one into depression? would i just be passing along my pain?

maybe you should consider a note, just to tell them it was not their fault and that they couldn't have prevented it, that will at least maybe prevent them from feeling guilty

 

[misanthropemurder]

Best of luckies too you. Make sure you are well prepared if going the partial route. I'm sorry for the suffering you have endured. Hope all goes well and that your summer camp is calm and enjoyable

Thank you so much for the well wishes :)

good luck, hope everything works out for u


maybe you should consider a note, just to tell them it was not their fault and that they couldn't have prevented it, that will at least maybe prevent them from feeling guilty

Thank you, I'll consider writing a note, i'm just not sure I'll be able to write something that emotional and still have it be cohesive.

however you decide
I wish you a pleasant time at summer camp

Thank you :)

 

[korin]

If you don't mind me asking, what's the method that you chose?

 

[misanthropemurder]

If you don't mind me asking, what's the method that you chose?

Partial hanging, it's really all i have available to me right now.

 

[AuraByte]

Have a great time at summer camp, OP.

Before making any decisions, when you return from summer camp, will you come back and talk to us first? I'd like to hear how your trip was and how you are feeling.