Going now

[DouceLune]

Hello,

I've been in quite a state lately, where I can't seem but constantly hate myself, I get sweaty and so on. I keep getting more and more tired, yesterday I slept through the entire day, thought it was Saturday today, turns out it was Sunday. I'm so tired of being here, I'm typing this as the last few things here, most likely, who knows, kind of in an unpredictable state as of now. Thanks for being here y'all, it was a pleasure knowing everyone. Time to find out of this 'fake' SN I bought is the real deal.


Not only has everything been rough as fuck the past few weeks, everyone around me seems to ignore it, push me on to do more and more and more and more and it makes and drives me insane, lately started xanax too in ways to calm down. Not quite prescribed but hey, gotta get it someway or another. I can't even keep up with my bare essentials, I haven't showered in weeks, like, 7 or 8, my room hasn't been cleaned or whatever in over 8 years. I've been destined for this day for years upon years, I'm young but not destined to be old. Nothing of this is pre-written, it all comes out of my head and is posted instantly, nothing more nothing less.


Signing off

 

[Haruka]

Hi, I hope you have a smooth and peaceful exit. I am here if you need a friend

 

[Yahwa]

I hope you'll have a peaceful exit Thank you for sharing your struggle with us, may you get the love you deserve in your next life

 

[Lenmenhen]

I hope it goes well. I hope I can follow your path soon.

 

[dimstar]

Rushing is not a recipe for success. Unless you've thought long about this and feel the time is right no regrets then I'd recommend pushing through. But if your sure safe travels may you find peace.

 

[DouceLune]

Rushing is not a recipe for success. Unless you've thought long about this and feel the time is right no regrets then I'd recommend pushing through. But if your sure safe travels may you find peace.

Been this way for longer than when I was taught was 3x3 is. Not much of a rush job, only found this place after the amount of abnoxious hiding after months.

 

[Letgo]

Hope everything goes smooth and you find peace.
You are thought of.

 

[DouceLune]

Beyond this point I'm going to be calmly laying on my bed, waiting for the SN to do it's thing, taking the drink soon. Goodnight/morning, and goodbye.

 

[dimstar]

Alright well I'm sorry you've been in agony with no escape. I get it, sometimes theres no answer to the pain this world puts us through. I hope you find peace. Do you have any ae or benzos? Mine and alot of peoples method here. Going to update or sign off? It's all a personal choice we'll support you regardless no judgment. Again sorry for the pain.

 

[LittleJem]

Lots and lots of luck for a peaceful journey. May your sufferings be over and may you find rest.

 

[lessthanperfect]

Safe travels

 

[DouceLune]

Didn't go through with it, because apparently (?) my girlfriend stalks my account (idk how she found it) came in running the room with medical services 'n shit


So I guess what it is
I'm stuck to this forsake world for years upon years to come, or maybe not who knows

 

[soontobedone]

I'm glad you didn't need the antidote etc. It could have been worse.

 

[chr74]

what happened did they haul you into hospital or take your SN ?

 

[milk is sweet]

I wish you good luck, with whatever decision you make

 

[Shy_Shay]

i think his GF came with medical service and he got taken away for now, he will probably update later

 

[FuneralCry]

It must had been so awful for your plans to be interrupted, other people really should have no right to interfere in someone's plans to die, it's cruel to want to force someone else to suffer against their wishes. But anyway I hope you don't end up locked in a horrific psych ward.

 

[DouceLune]

what happened did they haul you into hospital or take your SN ?

Both, currently in the ER with all kinds of pbes attached to me, took my blood n al dat

i think his GF came with medical service and he got taken away for now, he will probably update later

Yup...

It must had been so awful for your plans to be interrupted, other people really should have no right to interfere in someone's plans to die, it's cruel to want to force someone else to suffer against their wishes. But anyway I hope you don't end up locked in a horrific psych ward.

Not just just the SN, they took everything felated

 

[Shy_Shay]

thank you for updating us, best of luck for you in next chapter hopefully a better one

 

[DouceLune]

what happened did they haul you into hospital or take your SN ?

Depending on how you are it seems, if take it, no need to be forceful. If they go : 'oh noticed and stopped' it's calm

 

[DouceLune]

I'm sorry for some of my incoherent replies, I was still in the middle of what seemed to be a very extreme high. If anyone has a question they truly want answered, I'm here for it now, properly that is.

what happened did they haul you into hospital or take your SN ?

as far as I'm aware, as I don't actually remember the day at all, in the slightest, I was just rushed to the 'ER' so to say. No clue what the proper translation would be, but something of that sorts. As of today, I'm still in possession of remaining SN, nothing has been taken.

Alright well I'm sorry you've been in agony with no escape. I get it, sometimes theres no answer to the pain this world puts us through. I hope you find peace. Do you have any ae or benzos? Mine and alot of peoples method here. Going to update or sign off? It's all a personal choice we'll support you regardless no judgment. Again sorry for the pain.

I was absolutely gone on benzos, which caused my strange responses. I had like approx 100mg of xanax or more.

 

[Unwr!tten]

How are you?

 

[DouceLune]

How are you?

Currently? certainly a personal question if I'd say so. To this day I'm still having a slight headache every day, but that seems to be fading away. I still feel the way I did emotionally/mentally as before the day I attempted, so not much improvement there either. As for the medical portions, it kinda seems like it never existed/happened, wasn't even called once or whatever since I was released, neither was there anything at all I can remember/recall that was said then and there. I called back myself, but after all the counts of therapy I've already tried before, I'm not really that willing into trying all of that again.