CumbriaCTB
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- Jul 15, 2025
- 87
So I'm currently in my local A&E after cutting my arm (normal self-harm) and trying to hang myself as a CTB attempt.
Here's a souvenir photo I took earlier:
(Hey, embed works for me on Tor mobile!)
I'm in here because I phoned 111 as a last ditch alternative to hanging (I aborted due to SI) and basically just wanted a paper trail so I could maybe get government caregivers who might be able to help me live a life that isn't daily suffering. Fat chance, of course, but it's worth a shot if I'm just going to CTB otherwise, right?
The bloke on 111 phones an ambulance after I babble a bunch of incoherent nonsense at him; carotid constriction does drain the oxygen out of your head, after all. Ambulance team shows up, photographs all of the bloodstains and destroyed furniture, and even photographs the noose (lmao) then they coerce me into the ambulance (said they were going to call the psych people to my house if I didn't haha) and so off to A&E we went.
Staff at A&E said they'd call the Police if I tried to leave (which is funny because all of the local coppers know me by name lol), took my phone charger "for safety" and told me I needed to keep the door open for monitoring purposes. Now, this is where I started getting a bit worried: normally they don't care about any of that - I've walked out loads of times before, often without trlling anyone, and they didn't care whatsoever. Nurses even checked on me every hour and gave me food which is weird because they usually don't do any of that at all for the acute psych admissions of which I've had literally hundreds due to public breakdowns and crisis-calls-gone-wrong. Here I am thinking "oh, shit, was I wrong? Do people actually still get Sectioned for CTB here? Did Labour free up a psych ward bed for me?".
Nah. After sitting in this room for 8+ hours and watching films on my tablet, a guy finally comes in to clean my self-harm wounds. I ask him about it and he just says they're going to do the usual bullshit with me - short & pointless conversation with a psych practioner before handing me a leafet, and sending me home - so why all the fuss about the Police if its just a normal admission like what usually happens whenever I self-harm in public? I really don't know haha but here we are.
So, whenever I come on here and say "you can't get Sectioned for CTB in the UK lolol", this is precisely what I mean. The NHS won't do shit unless you're at imminent risk of harming other people - they're not arsed about what you do to yourself.
Sincerely,
CumbriaCTB
Here's a souvenir photo I took earlier:
(Hey, embed works for me on Tor mobile!)
I'm in here because I phoned 111 as a last ditch alternative to hanging (I aborted due to SI) and basically just wanted a paper trail so I could maybe get government caregivers who might be able to help me live a life that isn't daily suffering. Fat chance, of course, but it's worth a shot if I'm just going to CTB otherwise, right?
The bloke on 111 phones an ambulance after I babble a bunch of incoherent nonsense at him; carotid constriction does drain the oxygen out of your head, after all. Ambulance team shows up, photographs all of the bloodstains and destroyed furniture, and even photographs the noose (lmao) then they coerce me into the ambulance (said they were going to call the psych people to my house if I didn't haha) and so off to A&E we went.
Staff at A&E said they'd call the Police if I tried to leave (which is funny because all of the local coppers know me by name lol), took my phone charger "for safety" and told me I needed to keep the door open for monitoring purposes. Now, this is where I started getting a bit worried: normally they don't care about any of that - I've walked out loads of times before, often without trlling anyone, and they didn't care whatsoever. Nurses even checked on me every hour and gave me food which is weird because they usually don't do any of that at all for the acute psych admissions of which I've had literally hundreds due to public breakdowns and crisis-calls-gone-wrong. Here I am thinking "oh, shit, was I wrong? Do people actually still get Sectioned for CTB here? Did Labour free up a psych ward bed for me?".
Nah. After sitting in this room for 8+ hours and watching films on my tablet, a guy finally comes in to clean my self-harm wounds. I ask him about it and he just says they're going to do the usual bullshit with me - short & pointless conversation with a psych practioner before handing me a leafet, and sending me home - so why all the fuss about the Police if its just a normal admission like what usually happens whenever I self-harm in public? I really don't know haha but here we are.
So, whenever I come on here and say "you can't get Sectioned for CTB in the UK lolol", this is precisely what I mean. The NHS won't do shit unless you're at imminent risk of harming other people - they're not arsed about what you do to yourself.
Sincerely,
CumbriaCTB
