Venting getting high off suicide

[Eyris]

i feel so sick as a person. i was watching a seppuku video and i felt a rush of euphoria and i got super dizzy and my ears were ringing. i don't know why i'm like this, why do i like it in a sense. i don't get it, i've always been fascinated with gore but it was never enjoyable. i feel like i'm going to become a sick outcast if this keeps happening i really just want to react like my old self. i don't know what changed. will people be repulsed or scared if i ever share this stuff. i want to be normal

 

[NoLoveNoHope]

It can be addicting like many other things, I think it's more of a guilty pleasure and awe. It got addicting for me so I stopped watching those videos ASAP as I felt less empathetic to suffering and tragedy.

 

[CTB Fella]

I don't want to be normal.

Fuck being normal in an abnormal world.