Help Getting Close to CTB

[Unattainable666]

Well kids, it's getting close to CTB for me (does that rhyme???) I believe they will be canning me from my job for what reason ?? my mental illness yup here in the good old US of A you can be fired for that. I'm pretty weepy today. I need to get my shit together. Need to not show those bitches at work what a tough old bat I am. I have to remember that in life there really is no hope. That in death I will be with Chris again - that is my hope. The only thing I fear is failure. I would prefer to not be a vegetable - fruits are more my thing. I'm trying very hard to make light of this day and my predicament (I do have a sense of humor). Anyway, I need to get my shit together. those bitches have seen me cry too many times and have enjoyed it too many times Funny how people so enjoy other people's pain and sorrow - that is so sick. Well off I go to the land of getting fucked. I wish you all a day filled with peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

I doubt that peace could ever truly exist in this dreadful reality as long as one is trapped here, at least not for me. But anyway I hope that you eventually find freedom from all the suffering, best wishes.

 

[Unattainable666]

I doubt that peace could ever truly exist in this dreadful reality as long as one is trapped here, at least not for me. But anyway I hope that you eventually find freedom from all the suffering, best wishes.

Funeral Cry - do you mind if I ask you a personal question? Feel free to not answer - is there a reason you have not ctb ? Your mind set of life is much life mine and quite honestly the only reason I'm still here is fear of failing. I'm just curious. Thanks.

 

[FuneralCry]

Funeral Cry - do you mind if I ask you a personal question? Feel free to not answer - is there a reason you have not ctb ? Your mind set of life is much life mine and quite honestly the only reason I'm still here is fear of failing. I'm just curious. Thanks.

Because of the fact that suicide methods are either inaccessible and risky, it's just the unfortunate reality that we exist in a world where we cannot easily escape from all the suffering in peace.

 

[Unattainable666]

Because of the fact that suicide methods are either inaccessible and risky, it's just the unfortunate reality that we exist in a world where we cannot easily escape from all the suffering in peace.

I understand that completely.

 

[peelingbananas]

Well kids, it's getting close to CTB for me (does that rhyme???) I believe they will be canning me from my job for what reason ?? my mental illness yup here in the good old US of A you can be fired for that. I'm pretty weepy today. I need to get my shit together. Need to not show those bitches at work what a tough old bat I am. I have to remember that in life there really is no hope. That in death I will be with Chris again - that is my hope. The only thing I fear is failure. I would prefer to not be a vegetable - fruits are more my thing. I'm trying very hard to make light of this day and my predicament (I do have a sense of humor). Anyway, I need to get my shit together. those bitches have seen me cry too many times and have enjoyed it too many times Funny how people so enjoy other people's pain and sorrow - that is so sick. Well off I go to the land of getting fucked. I wish you all a day filled with peace.

i like the painting in your pfp. starry night by vincent van gogh. i'm extremely sorry for what's happening to you. what other options for jobs do you have? or are there none? have you searched?

 

[Unattainable666]

i like the painting in your pfp. starry night by vincent van gogh. i'm extremely sorry for what's happening to you. what other options for jobs do you have? or are there none? have you searched?

i hate where i llive (NM)I want to get as far away from here as i can ive been trying for a while with no success to be honest i would rather be dead than where i am

 

[peelingbananas]

i hate where i llive (NM)I want to get as far away from here as i can ive been trying for a while with no success to be honest i would rather be dead than where i am

how much money would it realistically take to move out of there and into somewhere stable? like even a temporary apartment until you can find a job in the new area

 

[Unattainable666]

how much money would it realistically take to move out of there and into somewhere stable? like even a temporary apartment until you can find a job in the new area

Probably about $3,000 BUT i HAVE TO FIND A JOB. i'VE WORKED AS A PARALEGAL FOR 30 YEARS. Sorry the caps were on.

 

[peelingbananas]

Probably about $3,000 BUT i HAVE TO FIND A JOB. i'VE WORKED AS A PARALEGAL FOR 30 YEARS. Sorry the caps were on.

no worries! how long have you been searching for one for by now?

 

[Unattainable666]

no worries! how long have you been searching for one for by now?

6 months

 

[peelingbananas]

6 months

oh shit, what was your last job?

 

[day]

Hope you're able to find peace soon, I know you deserve it. Sending love to you friend.

 

[Unattainable666]

oh shit, what was your last job?

im working as a paralegal but i hate the state im in

 

[peelingbananas]

im working as a paralegal but i hate the state im in

ah, i see. pretty nice career! if you enjoy it i hope you can get it in another state in the future, or at least something else you enjoy.

 

[Unattainable666]

ah, i see. pretty nice career! if you enjoy it i hope you can get it in another state in the future, or at least something else you enjoy.

thank you for your kind words

 

[peelingbananas]

thank you for your kind words

no problem! best of luck to you and your future, much love! <3