Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it so deeply undesirable to exist.
No matter what I really will always find it so undesirable to exist and I wish that more than anything I never suffered, existence is the most dreadful, torturous and cruel burden that just causes harm and suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel.

I'll just always find it so torturous to exist and every second is torture to be conscious, all I want is to never suffer again and simply just existing is enough to make me wish for the peace of non-existence, all I want is peace from the suffering, I just want to erase this terrible, dreadful existence and I'll always see existing as only suffering, only non-existence could ever be positive and desirable to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes harm.
It truly does just cause harm and I'll always see existence as the most terrible, dreadful mistake that only ever tortures existing beings and I'll just always find it so torturous to suffer in this existence.

For me non-existence is just the only peace from this existence so cruel that just causes all this dreadful unnecessary suffering all for the sake of it, I'll just always see it as an abomination to suffer in this existence and it's one only non-existence can bring me any peace from, existence is just so harmful, I'll just always see it as so dreadful and terrible to suffer in this painful, torturous existence no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only non-existence can solve everything for me.
It truly is all that can solve everything for me in this existence so torturous and cruel that I just always saw as a mistake, I'll always see this dreadful, cruel existence as the problem, all I could hope for is no more suffering and there's just so much suffering in existing.

All want is peace from it all, for me non-existence would be the positive solution to escape from and find permanent relief from this torturous, deeply undesirable existence that to me will always just be waiting to die, all that existence does is just cause harm and suffering, the suffering this existence causes is endless, all I could ever wish for is to be free from it all.