No peace in this cruel existence.
No matter what I could never see any peace in this cruel existence rather I'll always see it as an abomination to exist, this existence is the problem to me and I wish I never suffered more than anything, all I want is to not exist, I just want to be gone, I just want peace from all pain and suffering and I'll just only be at peace in non-existence, for me non-existence truly is the only relief and peace, I'll always find it so dreadful to be burdened with this painful, cruel existence I just always saw as a mistake.