Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Never wanting to suffer in this existence.
No matter what I really would never want to suffer in this existence rather all I want is to not exist, I just want to never suffer again with this dreadful, cruel and torturous existence all gone and forgotten.

For me non-existence is just the only peace in this existence so dreadful that I always saw as a mistake and I suffer simply from existing, it's all just so cruel and I wish I never had to suffer, I just find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed causing all this harm and suffering and as long as I exist I'll just hope to never suffer again, I'd just never wish for this existence of unnecessary suffering rather all I want is to be gone, I'll always see existence as the problem and it's one only non-existence can solve and take away for me, I just wish for no more suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wanting to exist.
No matter what I really would never want to exist and I wish I never suffered more than anything, I find it so terrible and dreadful how this existence was imposed causing all this harm, suffering and cruelty as a result and I suffer simply from existing.

It's just all so terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is some peace and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this existence I always saw as a mistake, for me non-existence is just all that's desirable, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer so much as a result of this existence I'd just never wish for that I never would had chosen, all I want is to be gone, I just want all to be forgotten, I just want to never suffer in this dreadful, futile and cruel existence ever again and I'll always see existing as only suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer.
I truly will only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this dreadful, torturous and cruel existence and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so terrible and dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist.

I just want some peace and I'll only be at peace once I'm unconscious for all eternity with this existence finally no longer my problem, for me non-existence is just the only peace and relief and I wish I never suffered more than anything, I wish this existence was never imposed, I wish I was never burdened with this deeply undesirable, cruel and painful existence that just brings and causes so much futile unnecessary suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just always an abomination.
It truly is just an abomination that causes harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can suffer and I wish I never suffered more than anything, I find it the most terrible tragedy how this futile, torturous existence was imposed causing all this cruelty, harm and suffering as a result and I suffer so much as a result of this abomination.

It's just all so cruel and I never should had been burdened with this existence I always saw as the most terrible mistake at all, all I want is to be gone, I just want to never exist again and I'll always see this dreadful, cruel and torturous existence as only suffering, it's suffering only non-existence could ever take away for me and I suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this painful and deeply undesirable existence that I just never would had wished for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Wish to erase this existence.
I truly do hope and wish to erase this existence, I want it to be like I never suffered in this torturous, dreadful and deeply undesirable existence at all, as long as I exist I really will just hope for peace from all the suffering.

I just want to never suffer again but of course all the pain and suffering just continues, I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me, I wish for no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of existing, it's all so terrible and dreadful and I wish I never suffered more than anything, in this existence so cruel and futile non-existence is just the only peace for me and I'll only hope for the peace of non-existence no matter what, I just hope to never exist again but of course all the suffering just continues and I suffer so much as a result of this existence, it's all so cruel and dreadful to me and I wish I never existed more than anything, I just never should had suffered at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only non-existence can solve everything for me.
It truly is all that can solve everything for me and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this existence so dreadful that I just always saw as a mistake and I'll always see existing as only suffering, it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me, all I wish and hope for is to be gone.

I just want some peace and I'll only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this existence I never would had chosen, for me non-existence truly is the only relief in this existence where I'm just waiting to die and I'll always see existing as waiting for death, it's all so cruel and terrible and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to be gone, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from this existence I just never would had chosen.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always and only hoping for non-existence.
No matter what non-existence truly is all I could hope for and I wish I never suffered in this dreadful, torturous existence more than anything, for me non-existence is just the only peace and relief in this existence I just always saw as a mistake.

All I hope for is to be gone, I just want to never suffer again with this existence all forgotten and I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer, for me non-existence is just all that's desirable in this existence so torturous and dreadful that I never would had chosen that only ever caused and brought so much pain, for me non-existence truly is the only peace in this existence I always saw as such a terrible mistake and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so dreadful and terrible and I'd never wish for any of this suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping to be gone.
No matter what all I could hope for is to be gone, I just want to never suffer in this cruel, torturous and dreadful existence ever again, I just want all to be forgotten for me in the peace of non-existence.

I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of existing, it's just all so dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me in the peace of non-existence and I just suffer so much as a result of existing, it really is all so terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is some peace and for me non-existence is just the only peace in this existence so torturous, cruel and dreadful I always saw as a mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes endless amounts of suffering.
It truly does just cause endless amounts of suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I'd just never wish to suffer in this futile, deeply undesirable existence rather all I hope for is peace, I just want to be gone.

I just want to never suffer again and there's just so much pain and so much suffering in this existence I always saw as the most terrible mistake, it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me and I'd just always prefer to not exist no matter what, all I want is to be gone, I wish for no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of existing, for me non-existence is just the only peace in this existence so dreadful and torturous that I never would had chosen that just brought and caused so much pain.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always preferring to not exist.
No matter what I truly would always prefer to not exist than suffer and I wish I never suffered in this dreadful, torturous and cruel existence I always saw as a mistake more than anything.

In this existence so futile that just causes harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured non-existence really is all I see as desirable and is the only peace for me and I'll just only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this existence I never would had chosen that only caused me to suffer and I suffer simply from existing, for me non-existence truly is the only relief and I wish I never suffered more than anything.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always preferring to not exist than suffer.
No matter what I truly will always prefer to not exist than suffer and I wish I never suffered in this dreadful, cruel and torturous existence more than anything, I always find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed and as long as I exist I really will just hope to never suffer again.

For me only non-existence could ever be desirable, all I want is to be gone, I just want peace from this existence that just causes so much suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, it's just all so dreadful to me and I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer, all I want is to be permanently free from the pain and suffering of existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only in non-existence will I be at peace.
It truly is the only peace for me and I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer, only non-existence can bring me the peace and relief from suffering I search for and I'll always see existing as only suffering, it's all so dreadful and I wish I never existed more than anything.

I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed causing all this cruelty, harm and suffering as a result and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only non-existence can bring me peace from, all I could ever hope for no matter what is to be gone, I just wish for no more suffering and I suffer simply from being burdened with this dreadful existence, all I want is to be gone, I just wish and hope for peace and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this existence I just always saw as the most cruel mistake.

 

[quietpill]

2) The terrible tragedy of existence
I find the existence of life to be the most terrible, horrific tragedy and more than anything I wish I never had anything to do with it. To be conscious and aware in a world filled with pain and suffering is a curse to me, it's something so terrible, it just feels like a mistake that torments me.

Why does life have to exist when nobody can be harmed by the peace of eternal nothingness, I find it so tragic to exist as a conscious being destined to suffer, deteriorate and decay with no limit as to how bad the agony can get, it really is all just meaningless suffering and I don't want to suffer in any way, rather I just wish for the eternity of non-existence, I wish all could be erased and forgotten about for me.

To die is always preferable to me than suffering in this cruel, pointless existence where chance so senselessly determines everything, I find it so tragic how existing beings have to suffer as a result of this abomination, I wish I could just fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep preventing all future pointless torment in an existence that caused me nothing but pain, it's tragic how existing beings are tortured every second, so many of them dying slowly and painfully. No matter what I'll always see existence as something so terrible, I just want some peace.

I'm glad youre back. im curious, what is your preferred IDEAL way to CTB?

 

[FuneralCry]

Always seeing existence as the problem.
No matter what I'll always see existence as the problem and I wish that more than anything I never suffered in this torturous, cruel existence I always saw as a mistake, for me non-existence is just all that's desirable and is the only relief for me, all I hope for is to never suffer again.

I wish for no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this painful, cruel and deeply undesirable existence that I never would had chosen, to me existence really is the problem and I'll always see it as an abomination to suffer in this existence no matter what, all I hope for is to be gone, I just want to never exist again.

 

[30LoverForever]

Every post is how I feel as well
I also wish to have never existed

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes pain.
It truly does just cause pain with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I wish that more than anything I never suffered, I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather all I want is peace and I'll only be at peace once I'm unconscious for all eternity and I suffer simply from existing.

Only non-existence can bring me the relief from suffering I search for and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer again, I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and that's all existence does just cause pain with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, it's all so dreadful to me and I wish I never suffered more than anything.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes so much suffering.
It truly does just cause so much suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I'd just never wish to suffer in this dreadful, torturous existence rather all I want is to not exist.

For me only non-existence could ever be positive and only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from this existence that was so tragically imposed causing and bringing all this harm and suffering as a result and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so terrible and dreadful and I wish that more than anything I was never burdened with this existence I just always saw as a mistake, for me existence will just always be the problem and it's one only non-existence can solve for me, I just hope for no more pain and no more suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

There is just so much suffering in this dreadful existence.
There truly is just so much suffering in this dreadful existence and I wish I never suffered more than anything, all I want is peace from it all. I just want to be gone and only non-existence can bring me the peace and relief from suffering I search for and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so dreadful and terrible and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never exist again.

For me non-existence is just all that's desirable and is all I could hope for and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this dreadful existence and I'll just always find it so dreadful to exist, I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me relief from, all I want is to be gone, I just wish for no more suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wanting to be burdened with this existence.
No matter what I really would never want to be burdened with this existence and I wish I never suffered more than anything, existence to me is always a burden and it's one that just causes endless amounts of harm and suffering and I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed, all I want is to be gone.

I just want to never suffer again, I'll always see existence as the problem and it's one only non-existence can solve for me, I just wish for no more suffering and I always suffer so much as a result of existing, it's suffering only ceasing to exist can take away for me, all I want is to be gone, I just want to never exist again, I always hope and wish to erase this cruel, futile and deeply undesirable existence so it's like I never suffered.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always wishing to erase this existence.
I truly do always wish to erase this existence, I just want it to be like I never suffered in this futile, torturous and dreadful existence at all but of course all the suffering just continues and I suffer simply from existing.

It's just all so dreadful and terrible and I wish I never suffered more than anything, in this existence so torturous only non-existence can bring me peace, I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me, I wish for no more suffering and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so cruel and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to be gone, I just want to never exist again, I'd never wish for this painful existence that just causes harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and there's just so much suffering in this futile existence I just always saw as a mistake, existence itself is just always the true problem to me and I wish I never had to suffer.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it so dreadful to suffer in this existence.
No matter what I really will always find it so terrible and dreadful to suffer in this existence and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, in this existence so torturous, cruel and futile non-existence is just the only relief for me and is all I see as desirable.

I just want to never exist again, in this existence so undesirable only non-existence can solve everything for me, I just wish for true permanent peace from this deeply undesirable existence, I'll just always see existence as the problem and it's one only the peace of non-existence can take away for me, all I want is no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence I never would had chosen that only ever caused me to suffer.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always seeing existing as just waiting to die.
No matter what I really will always see existing as just being waiting to die and I wish I never suffered in this cruel, torturous and futile existence more than anything, in this existence so dreadful non-existence is just the only relief for me and is all I hope for.


I'll just always find it so undesirable to suffer in this existence, in this existence I just always saw as a mistake only non-existence can bring me peace and I'll just only wish for non-existence no matter what, all I want is peace from all the suffering, existing to me will always just be waiting to die, it's just pain and suffering all for the sake of it and I could never see a point to any of this rather all I want is to be gone, I just want to never suffer again and there's just so much suffering and so much cruelty in this dreadful existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only seeing eternal sleep as desirable.
No matter what I could truly only ever see eternal sleep as desirable, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather all I hope for is an eternal sleep where finally all is forgotten and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence.

It's just all so cruel and terrible and I wish I never existed more than anything, in this existence I always saw as the most cruel mistake only non-existence can bring me peace and I'll only be at peace once I'm unconscious for all eternity with no more pain and no more suffering, I just want all to be forgotten for me in non-existence, eternal sleep is just all I see as desirable and is all that could ever be for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of suffering.
I truly am just always so tired of suffering and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, I just find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed that just causes suffering all for the sake of it and I suffer simply from existing.

It's just all so terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is some peace and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this existence, for me non-existence is just the only relief in this existence so torturous and futile, for me non-existence is just all that's desirable, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the relief I search for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes harm and suffering.
It truly does just cause harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can suffer and I wish I was never burdened with this existence more than anything, in this existence so torturous and futile only non-existence can bring me peace and I wish I never had to suffer.

I'd just never wish for the suffering of this dreadful, harmful and torturous existence I just always saw as a mistake and I'll always see existing as only suffering, I just suffer so much as a result of this existence I never would had chosen and as long as I exist I really will just wish to be permanently free from this existence that just causes harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, all I want is some peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping to be gone.
No matter what all I could hope for is to be gone, I just want to never suffer again with this dreadful, cruel and torturous existence all forgotten and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only non-existence can bring me peace from and as long as I exist I'll just wish to not exist, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering.

I always wish to erase this existence, I just want all to be gone for me in non-existence but of course all the suffering just continues and I wish I never suffered more than anything, I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed causing all this harm and suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish this existence was never imposed.
More than anything I wish this dreadful, torturous existence of unnecessary suffering was never imposed, I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather all I want is some peace.

I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this existence I always saw as a mistake, for me non-existence is just the only relief in this existence so dreadful that I always saw as a mistake, I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to be gone, I just want all to be forgotten for me in non-existence, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from this existence that was so tragically imposed that just brought and caused all this pain and suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of suffering.
I truly am always so tired of suffering and I just wish I never suffered in this dreadful, torturous and futile existence more than anything, for me non-existence is just the only peace and relief in this existence I always saw as a mistake and I wish I never suffered more than anything.

I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long, as long as I exist I really will just hope for eternal sleep, I just want to never suffer again and I'll only be at peace from all pain and suffering when I'm no longer burdened with this existence I'm always so tired of.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes harm and suffering.
It truly does just cause harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I just suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this terrible, torturous existence.

It's all just so cruel to me and as long as I exist I'll just wish and hope to be gone, I just want to never suffer again with this painful existence all forgotten and I suffer simply from existing, I really would just never wish for this existence that just causes and brings all this harm and suffering with no limit as to how unbearable it can get, to me existence really does feel like a mistake and I wish I never suffered more than anything.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer from being burdened with this existence.
I truly do always suffer from being burdened with this dreadful, cruel and torturous existence and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer again, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from the terrible mistake of existence.

I'll just always see existence as a mistake, it's one that just causes harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I suffer simply from being burdened with this existence, I'd just never wish for this existence that just causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for and as long as I exist I'll just hope to be gone, I wish for no more suffering and I'll always see this dreadful, cruel existence as only suffering no matter what.