Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping for peace from this torturous existence.
No matter what all I could ever hope for is peace from this torturous existence, I just want to never suffer again but of course all the pain, suffering and cruelty of existing just continues.

It's all so dreadful to me and I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just want all to be forgotten in the peace of non-existence with no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only non-existence can bring me any relief from as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer.

There is no suffering in an eternal sleep where finally all is forgotten and nothing in this dreadful, unnecessary and undesirable existence can concern me, all I want is to never suffer again and I'll always find it so torturous, painful and dreadful to exist and I suffer simply from existing. It's just all so dreadful to me and I suffer so much as a result of this futile existence, it's all so cruel and there's just so much cruelty in this existence I always saw as a mistake, I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is some peace and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer so unnecessarily in this existence I just always saw as causing nothing but harm, I always suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this futile existence I never would had chosen and never would wish for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer from existing.
I truly do always suffer so much as a result of this terrible, dreadful existence and it's all so cruel to me, more than anything I just wish I never suffered, I never should had suffered in this existence I always saw as the most cruel mistake causing all this cruelty, harm and suffering as a result and as long as I exist I'll only wish to never suffer again.


Only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from the terrible tragic mistake of existence and I suffer simply from being conscious in this existence destined to decay and die anyway, it's just all so cruel and terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is some peace.

I'll just only be at peace once I'm n longer burdened with this existence I always saw as a mistake and I suffer simply from existing, it's all just so cruel to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, I just want to never suffer again, I wish for no more suffering and I'll always see this dreadful, futile existence as only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, I just want to never wake ever again but of course I continue to be burdened with this existence suffering so unnecessarily, it's just all so painful to me and I suffer so much from being burdened with this painful existence and it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me, I'd just never wish to be burdened with this dreadful existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it a burden to exist.
No matter what I'll always find it a burden to exist and it's a burden that just causes endless amounts of cruelty, harm and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway.

I'd just always prefer to not exist than be conscious of this existence I always saw as the most cruel mistake and there's just so much pain in existing, I'd just never wish to be burdened with this existence rather all I want is to never wake ever again, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from this dreadful, cruel existence of unnecessary suffering and I suffer simply from existing.

I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want all to be forgotten for me in non-existence, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this existence destined to decay and die anyway, it's all just so terrible and I wish I never had to suffer, I just never should had suffered at all in this existence I always saw as the most cruel, dreadful mistake causing all this harm and suffering as a result with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so terrible to me and I'd never wish to suffer so unnecessarily rather all I want is to never wake ever again, I wish for no more suffering and I suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this cruel, futile existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

To exist means to suffer.
No matter what I'll always see existing as only suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this torturous, cruel existence, I suffer simply from existing.

I just wish I never suffered in this terrible, dreadful existence more than anything, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for but of course all the suffering just continues and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather all I want is to not exist.

Only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me any peace from this existence I just always saw as a mistake but or course all the cruelty and suffering just continues with me just hoping and waiting to be gone and I'll always see existing as just waiting to die, it's just futile unnecessary suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I suffer simply from existing, it's all just so cruel and terrible to me and I wish I never existed more than anything, I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed causing all this harm, cruelty and suffering as a result.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing to me will always be waiting to die.
It truly is just waiting for death and I suffer from waiting to die in this existence I always saw as a mistake, to me existing is just so futile, dreadful and torturous and I'd just never wish for the pain and suffering of existing rather all I want is to never wake.

Only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from this existence where I suffer so unnecessarily and I suffer so much from waiting for death, all I want is to be unconscious for all eternity with no more pain and no more suffering and I'll just only be at peace from all the suffering in eternal sleep where finally nothing in this futile, dreadful existence can concern me, all I want is peace from the pain and suffering, I just want to never wake.

I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me with no more suffering and I suffer so much as a result of this dreadful existence I never would had chosen and I'll just always see existing as only suffering, it's all so dreadful to me, I just want to sleep permanently and I always suffer from how I cannot just have a death like never suffering ever again as all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the relief I search for from this torturous, futile existence I just always saw as a mistake causing all this suffering as a result and I suffer simply from existing.