Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Only wanting to never exist ever again.
No matter what all I could wish for is to never exist ever again, I wish for no more cruelty and no more suffering rather I just want to sleep permanently, in this existence where there is all this suffering and cruelty non-existence really is all that can bring me any peace and is just all I see as desirable.

I wish for no more pain and suffering and I'll just always find it so painful to suffer so unnecessarily in this futile, torturous existence I never would had wished for and never would had chosen and I'll just always see it as so dreadful to exist, for me existence is a problem only permanently ceasing to exist can bring me any relief from, I wish for no more cruelty and no more suffering rather I just want all to be forgotten in non-existence. I just want to never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering of existing just continues and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is some peace, I just wish for the peace of an eternal sleep where all is gone and this cruel existence is just no longer my concern, I really do always suffer so much from being burdened with this existence and I'd just never wish for the burden of existing rather I just want to never suffer ever again, for me non-existence really is the only relief and I'll just always find it so deeply undesirable to exist no matter what and I suffer so much as a result of this cruel, futile yet so harmful existence, I just hope for no more suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is the only peace for me.
It truly is the only peace for me as after all, only when I'm gone will I be unable to suffer, there is no suffering in non-existence which is all I wish and hope for and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this cruel, torturous existence no matter what and for me non-existence really is the only peace and relief, I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather I only hope for nothingness, I just wish for an permanent sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where all is finally gone and I can rest and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer.

I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me relief from, I just want to be at peace and for me non-existence really is the only peace in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I'll just always see existing as only suffering. I just want peace from it all, I'm just so tired of being burdened with this existence I always saw as the most cruel terrible mistake and there's just so much suffering and pain in existing, I'll just always find it so painful and torturous to suffer in this existence no matter what and it's suffering only non-existence could ever take away, I just want all to be forgotten for me with no more cruelty and no more suffering and I'm just so tired of suffering so unnecessarily in this torturous, futile existence I just never would had wished for, I wish I never suffered more than anything.

 

[kitee80]

I don't understand how i can simultaneously feel so numb but destroyed/shattered. I'm not compatible with life, i have no interest in it, i crave non-existence. I wonder just how much more i have to suffer to override everything and to give myself something ive been wanting for 16 years. I don't want to go another 16 years in this limbo. I need this to end, i need to be strong enough to give myself peace. Everyday i plead to nothing to give me that strength or an accident or someone. Just end my life please, I'm tired

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is all I've wished for.
It truly is all I wish for and could ever do, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather I just want to never wake ever again and in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering non-existence really is the only peace for me and is just all I see as desirable.

I wish for no more pain and I'll always find it so painful to suffer so unnecessarily in this torturous existence just hoping and waiting to die and I'll always see existing as waiting for death, it's just suffering all for the sake of it and I'm always so tired of suffering in this cruel, futile existence I always saw as the most terrible mistake and I suffer simply from existing. To me existing really is just only suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the relief I search for from this torturous existence I just never would had chosen and I wish I never suffered more than anything. I'll just always find it so dreadful to suffer in this painful, torturous and unnecessary existence, for me existence really is the problem and it's one only non-existence can bring me relief from, I truly would never wish for any of this rather I just want to not exist, I just want to never wake again but of course all the suffering and cruelty of existing just continues and I'm just always so tired of it all, for me non-existence really is the only peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only wishing to not exist.
No matter what all I could ever wish for is to not exist, I wish for no more pain and suffering rather all I want is to never wake ever again but of course all the suffering just continues and it's all just so dreadful to me, no matter what I'll always see existence as an mistake that causes harm and suffering.

I wish I never suffered more than anything, to me existence truly is an abomination and it's one that just causes cruelty and suffering and I'll just always find it so harmful to suffer in this existence destined to decay and die anyway and I suffer just from existing, it's suffering only an eternal sleep can take away for me and bring me relief from, I just only see non-existence as desirable and it's all I hope for. I wish for no more cruelty and no more suffering and I suffer just from existing, it's suffering only ceasing to exist can bring me peace from as after all there are no disadvantages to being gone, I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer and for me existing really is only suffering. I personally suffer just from existing and I'd never wish for any of this suffering rather I just want to never wake, for me non-existence truly is the only relief in this existence so undesirable that just causes so much harm and suffering until all is gone anyway, I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily in this cruel, torturous existence I just never would had wished for and never would had chosen no matter what and I suffer simply from existing, I truly am so tired of it all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is all that's positive for me.
It truly is all that's positive for me and is just all I could hope for, I wish for no more cruelty and no more suffering and I suffer simply from existing, for me non-existence really is the only relief and is all I see as desirable, I just want to never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering just continues me with me trapped in this cruel, torturous existence.

It really is all just so dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want to not exist, for me non-existence really is the only peace and is just all that's desirable in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and the suffering of existing is endless, I just wish I never suffered more than anything. I just never should had been burdened with this existence and as long as I exist I'll only wish for nothingness, I just want to never wake ever again but of course I continue to be trapped in this existence, I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only eternal sleep can bring me relief from. I just want all to be gone, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'm just always so tired of suffering in this torturous, cruel existence I just never would had chosen and would never wish for, to suffer in this existence really is the most dreadful, torturous abomination to me and I always suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this existence, all I want is to never exist ever again, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much cruelty in existing.
There truly is so much suffering and cruelty in existing with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and it's all just so terrible and dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never wake ever again with all forgotten for me, only non-existence could ever bring me the peace I search for from this existence I always saw as such a terrible mistake and there's just so much suffering in existing.

No matter what I really will always see existing as being only suffering with no limit as to how unbearable it can all get, it really is just all so cruel to me and I wish I never suffered more than anything, nothing would ever make me wish to suffer in this existence rather all I hope for is nothingness. I just want to fall asleep permanently and finally be free from this dreadful existence that to me will always be the most cruel mistake and I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just want to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me and take away what I see as the true problem which is existence itself as if I'm gone I cannot suffer, there are just no disadvantages to never suffering ever again and I'd never wish for the suffering of existing, I just wish this existence was never imposed more than anything, I'l just always find it so painful to suffer in this torturous, unnecessary existence I just never would had chosen and would never wish for no matter what, I only hope and wish for no more suffering and I always suffer as a result of existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer from how peaceful death is denied.
I truly do always suffer from how peaceful death is so cruelly and harmfully denied for me with the suffering and torture of existing seen as to force and prolong.

I just wish I never existed and I'd never wish for the suffering of existing rather all I want is to never suffer ever again, only non-existence could ever bring me the peace and relief from suffering I search for but of course all the suffering of this torturous existence just continues and it's all so dreadful to me.

I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing rather all I hope for is non-existence, all that existence does is just cause suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for and it's all so terrible to me, I wish I never suffered more than anything and I'll always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, as long as I exist I'll just wish to never wake ever again and I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have a death like falling asleep permanently as I'd never wish for the burden of existing as a human. Existence is a burden only ceasing to exist could ever bring me relief from, I wish for no more cruelty and no more suffering and I suffer simply from existing, I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is for all to be gone for me, only non-existence could ever bring me any relief from this existence I just always saw as the most cruel, terrible mistake

 

[FuneralCry]

Only wishing to never exist ever again.
No matter what all I could wish for is to never exist again, I wish for no more pain and I'll just always find it so painful to exist, for me existence really is the problem and it's one only non-existence can solve and take away for me as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer and there is no suffering in an eternal sleep.

I'll always and only see non-existence as desirable and it's all I could hope for, I'm just always so tired of suffering in this futile, torturous existence I just never would had chosen and would never wish for and for me existence really is the problem, I'd never wish for any of this suffering rather I just want to not exist, I'll just always find it so painful and dreadful and I'd just never wish for the pain of existing rather all I want is to never wake. I just wish for an eternal sleep where all is finally gone and nothing can concern me and for this existence to be all forgotten is all I wish for, I'm just always so tired of suffering and it's tiredness only non-existence could ever take away for me, I just want all to finally be gone but of course all the pain and suffering of existing just continues and it's all just so terrible to me, I really will just always find it so painful to exist, I just want to never exist ever again, if it's up to me I'd choose to erase this existence so it's like I never had to suffer and I wish I never suffered more than anything.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence really is the only peace for me.
It truly is the only peace for me and is just all I se as desirable and is all I hope for, I'd never wish for the suffering and cruelty of this torturous undesirable existence rather all I want is to not exist, I wish for no more suffering and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me as after all there are no disadvantages to permanent non-existence.

I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily and I'll just always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and it's all so dreadful to me, I wish I never suffered more than anything and I'd never wish to suffer in this existence, for me existence truly is the problem and it's one only non-existence can solve and take away for me as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer and I'll always see existing as only suffering. I suffer so much as a result of existing which is why I only hope to not exist, I just want to never suffer ever again and the suffering of existing is endless, it's all just so dreadful and terrible to me and I wish I never suffered more than anything, for me existence truly is the problem and it's one only non-existence can bring me relief from, I just hope and wish to never exist ever again with no more cruelty and no more suffering and I wish I never suffered in this torturous, cruel existence that just brought pain than anything.

 

[FuneralCry]

To suffer in this existence is always so dreadful to me.
No matter what I'll just always find it so dreadful to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence and I wish I never suffered at all more than anything, for me existence really is the problem and it's one only non-existence can take away for me, I find it so dreadful to exist and as long as I exist I'll always have so much dread for what lies ahead.

To me existence really does feel like the most terrible tragic mistake and it's one only non-existence can bring me peace from and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily and I'll just always see existing as unnecessary suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and I suffer simply from existing. I really will just always find it so dreadful to exist and all that this cruel, futile existence does is just cause and bring suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for, I just wish I never suffered more than anything and I'd never wish for the suffering of existing rather I just want to not exist. For me non-existence really is the only peace in this existence I just never would had wished for and never would had chosen and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer, to me existing really is just only suffering and I find it so terrifying how a human can exist for so long in this torturous existence just hoping and waiting for death anyway and I'll just always see existing as waiting to die no matter what as after all, death is all that's inevitable anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always seeing existing as waiting to die.
No matter what I really will always see existing as just waiting to die, it's just cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it and I just wish I never suffered in this cruel, torturous existence.

I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather all I want is to not exist, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all pain and suffering where all is finally forgotten and nothing can concern me and for this existence to be all gone is all I hope for, I just wish I never suffered more than anything but of course all the suffering just continues and it's all so dreadful to me, I'll just always see existence as the problem and it's one only ceasing to exist can bring me relief from. I really will just always see existing as waiting for death and it's just so terrible to me how there's all this suffering in existing with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and to me existing really is just only suffering, it's just suffering all for the sake of it that just tortures existing beings that there was just never a need for and I suffer so much as a result of this existence, I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing rather all I want is to not exist and I'll just only be at peace once I no longer suffer, I'll always just see existing as waiting for death and I always suffer from how I cannot just choose to never wake so finally I can rest and be at peace, I just hope and wish to never exist ever again but of course I just continue to suffer.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is an imposition.
No matter what I'll always see existence as an imposition that just causes harm and suffering and it's all just so terrible to me, more than anything I just wish I never suffered but of course all the suffering just continues and I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was even imposed.

To me existence really is an abomination and I'll just always find it so dreadful to be conscious burdened with this existence suffering so unnecessarily and it's a burden only non-existence could ever bring me peace from, I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me but of course I continue to suffer in this existence that was so tragically imposed. I just want to never wake ever again and as long as I exist I'll only hope to sleep permanently, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather all I want is to be at peace, I'd always prefer to not exist as only if I'm gone will I be unable to suffer but of course this existence just never should had been imposed. Never existing would had saved me from so much suffering in this cruel, torturous existence and I just only see never suffering at all as perfection, I wish I never suffered more than anything, I just never should had been burdened with this existence of suffering all for the sake of it I always saw as such a terrible tragic mistake in the first place, existence to me really is the problem and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is nothingness, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather I just want some peace and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer.