Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Existence is always an abomination to me.
No matter what I really will always find it an abomination to exist and I just wish I never suffered in this torturous, cruel and futile existence more than anything, in this existence so dreadful non-existence is just the only relief for me and is all I see as desirable.

I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of the dreadful, terrible abomination of existence, I just wish I never suffered more than anything and there's just so much suffering and cruelty in this existence I always saw as a mistake, I'd never wish for this abomination rather all I hope for is to never suffer again, I'll only be at peace in eternal sleep where this existence is all gone and forgotten, all I hope and wish for is to never suffer again and I just suffer so much as a result of this torturous existence I just never would had chosen and I'll always see existing as only suffering no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

To suffer in this existence is always so terrible to me.
It really is all so terrible to me and I just wish I never suffered in this cruel, futile and torturous existence more than anything, all I want is to be gone, I just wish and hope for peace from all the suffering.

All I want is to never exist again with this dreadful, cruel and deeply undesirable existence finally all forgotten and I'll just always see it as an abomination to exist, it's one only non-existence can bring me peace and relief from, all I wish and hope for is to never suffer again and I just suffer so much as a result of the dreadful abomination of existence and it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me, I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I always suffer so much as a result of this futile existence that just causes harm and suffering torturing existing beings until non-existence takes away all anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

All that existence does is just cause suffering.
It truly does just cause and bring so much futile unnecessary suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I just wish that more than anything I never suffered in this dreadful, torturous existence.

To me existence truly is an abomination and it's one that just causes harm and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and I'd just never wish for any of this, in this existence so cruel for me only an eternal sleep could ever be desirable and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily burdened with this existence I always saw as a mistake and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only non-existence can bring me any relief from and as long as I exist I truly will just wish and hope to never suffer again, I just wish for non-existence to bring me the relief I search for from the terrible, dreadful abomination of existence and I suffer simply from existing, it's all just so cruel to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

The peace of non-existence is all I could hope for.
It truly is all I could hope for and I just wish I never suffered in this dreadful, torturous and futile existence more than anything, in this existence so cruel non-existence really is the only relief for me and is all I see as desirable.

All I wish and hope for is to never suffer again and I'd just always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this existence, all I want is some peace and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have a death like falling into an eternal dreamless sleep to finally escape from the suffering of existing and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so cruel and terrible and I wish I never existed more than anything, for me non-existence is just the only relief and is all I could hope for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes harm.
It truly does just cause and bring harm with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I just wish that more than anything I never suffered in this cruel, torturous and harmful existence I always saw as a mistake.

In this existence so dreadful with no limit as to how much agony one can feel non-existence is just the only relief for me and is all I could hope for in this harmful existence where there's all this endless cruelty and suffering, as long as I exist I truly will just wish and hope to never suffer again, I wish for no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of being conscious burdened with this torturous existence I just never would had chosen that only caused harm.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence always feels like a mistake to me.
It truly does always feel like a mistake to me and I wish I never suffered in this cruel, torturous and dreadful existence more than anything, for me non-existence is just the only relief and is all I hope for in this existence I always saw as the most cruel mistake and I suffer simply from existing.

It's just all so dreadful to me and I'd always prefer to not exist no matter what than suffer and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only the peace of non-existence can take away for me, all I wish for is to be gone, I just wish to never exist again, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from the terrible tragic mistake of existence that I just never would had chosen that only ever caused me to suffer and I suffer so much as a result of existing.

 

[snooperdooper]

I don't wish to push it further than wondering, but you have to wonder who funeral cry is. I've never seen such a devotion to wanting to CTB, with such an inability to do so. 5 years and 44k posts and they're still here with us, in immense suffering. They're just such an intriguing figure to me. Wish them the best

 

[FuneralCry]

Always seeing existence as just waiting for death.
No matter what I really will always see existing as waiting for death and I wish I never suffered more than anything in this dreadful, torturous existence I always saw as a mistake that to me is just waiting to die.

I could never see a point to any of this, it's all just so futile, I'll always see existing as just being suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much one can be tortured no matter what and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me in this existence where I just hope and wait to be gone and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so terrible.