Venting Furious and desperate but have to wait..

[matt.7890]

I am in a situation where I know I have to ctb but can't do it immediately and need to wait for at least a few months and during this period I know it is going be a real HELL. in my life.

I am extremely furious about it and the feeling that there is nothing I can do to avoid it makes me absolutely sick. Is there anyone who can relate? What kind of methods do you have in order to let go?

 

[purpleuser]

You can skip the time if you sleep more, play more, drink more or stare at endless youtube vids. Depends on your hobbies i guess ._.

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand finding it so torturous to exist, all I want is to be gone, I always suffer so much as a result of existing, I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.