fuckkkkkk i cant fail

[worthless123]

i cant end up as a 50 year old shut in i have to find a surefire way to ctb before then god damnit why am i so scared of pain???? i cant keep putting this off forever i need to get SN or something i can't stand being a living burden on my family, an utter failure, embarrassment, laughing stock to all my peers fuckkkkkkkkkk i cant believe this is really happening. this is really the way it has to end. what am i going to think about in my final moments???

 

[loser4ever4life]

True, I know my path, it will end lonier than most people, don't think it matters if it happens now or in a couple decades. Trust me, I'm dissapointed that it's come to this, but at least I got a chance to make peace with it. At least I'm young enough that it's "he had so much potential" and not "he wasted his life"

 

[worthless123]

True, I know my path, it will end lonier than most people, don't think it matters if it happens now or in a couple decades. Trust me, I'm dissapointed that it's come to this, but at least I got a chance to make peace with it. At least I'm young enough that it's "he had so much potential" and not "he wasted his life"

same bro im 22 but i think it makes the most sense to end it now instead of holding out for some unrealistic comeback fantasy that just wont happen. theres simply no coming back from this, socially, mentally, physically. better to cut losses now before my family starts becoming truly unsympathetic to my situation.

 

[loser4ever4life]

no way I'm 22 too lol

I know what you mean, I'm holding out for some miracle but I know it won't come. Even if it did, I know I'd find myself here again. When I think about all my worries, the only thing that calms me down is knowing I will ctb soon and none of this matters. I've been thinking about this since I was a teen, I thought about cutting my losses then and I'm glad I waited, I've had some great moments since then.

I think now is the best time, I feel this is the best my life is ever going to be so might as well call it now. I only hope I don't fuck this last thing up too

 

[Pr3TTyB1rd]

Well full hanging hurts unless you know exactly where to hit the carotid arteries, and it's hard to get SN. Personally, I'd choose CO or KN (Carbon monoxide and potassium nitrite) as they are painless and you get a sort of euphoric feeling before you die.