Scenegirlshooter
numb and dumb.
- Aug 21, 2024
- 36
It's all SO fucking tiring.
I'm done. FUCK BEING CLEAN FUCK EATING NORMALLY FUCK
I'm young. I dont give a fuckin shit abt college fuck man. my parents fucked me up SO much with abuse- and they'll get away with it all probably.
All I get from these retard boomers is shit like "this WILL kill you" to my addictions and anorexia and my fucking drinking and the "YOUVE BEEN DOING THIS SINCE 8!" and "ITLL KILL YOU!"
"Your too old For this shit!"
That or it's RETARDS MY age
"drugs bad! Ur pro ana? Bad! You don't want to recover? BAAD!"
FUCK YOU ALL. Im happier being self destructive im happier when im slowly but rapidly destroying myself. I dont CARE!!
My mom and dad deserve all of the pain they get, its actually euphoric- it's cosmic karma After all they put me through these years. This is it. This is for the hitting and bullying they made me go through. You love me so much to half my life with all types of fucked abuse and LAUGH and ABUSE me when I showed signs of it or me defending myself- not just them BUT our society is raised for us to be literally just go through this. They literally sterilize us. W h y try.
I'm TIRED of ssris. I'm tired of natural non medication caused happiness being crushed BY doctors and PSYCHATRISTS and my abusers AND society with its stupid fucking judgement on us. Im NEVER going to be able to recover from anorexia or bulimia,
drugs are drugs. Addiction symptoms are worth it, and overdosing is the reward.
Same thing with "ana and mia."
FUCK YOU and your FUCKING FAUX treatments. I'm out. I'm done. I'm not touching anti psychs or fucking ssris ever again. Not like I'll live long enough to really recover.
I made a pact if I wasn't famous or whatever to die at 27. It fucking sucks. FUCK THIS. I can only see myself being a happy member of society is by being a serial killer, or being addicted to drugs my whole life, or FUCKING 80 pounds at 40 or... I dont know with a partner as ILL as me.
If I'm happier being self destructive and that's suicidal. Well, none of us are gonna live past 27.
20 years is retro after all, and the best part of suicide is YOU choose it.
It's not goodbye for now, but later ill be gone. Their consequences is the shame.
if I somehow live past 27... I will recover. I'll do meds.
I'm done. FUCK BEING CLEAN FUCK EATING NORMALLY FUCK
I'm young. I dont give a fuckin shit abt college fuck man. my parents fucked me up SO much with abuse- and they'll get away with it all probably.
All I get from these retard boomers is shit like "this WILL kill you" to my addictions and anorexia and my fucking drinking and the "YOUVE BEEN DOING THIS SINCE 8!" and "ITLL KILL YOU!"
"Your too old For this shit!"
That or it's RETARDS MY age
"drugs bad! Ur pro ana? Bad! You don't want to recover? BAAD!"
FUCK YOU ALL. Im happier being self destructive im happier when im slowly but rapidly destroying myself. I dont CARE!!
My mom and dad deserve all of the pain they get, its actually euphoric- it's cosmic karma After all they put me through these years. This is it. This is for the hitting and bullying they made me go through. You love me so much to half my life with all types of fucked abuse and LAUGH and ABUSE me when I showed signs of it or me defending myself- not just them BUT our society is raised for us to be literally just go through this. They literally sterilize us. W h y try.
I'm TIRED of ssris. I'm tired of natural non medication caused happiness being crushed BY doctors and PSYCHATRISTS and my abusers AND society with its stupid fucking judgement on us. Im NEVER going to be able to recover from anorexia or bulimia,
drugs are drugs. Addiction symptoms are worth it, and overdosing is the reward.
Same thing with "ana and mia."
FUCK YOU and your FUCKING FAUX treatments. I'm out. I'm done. I'm not touching anti psychs or fucking ssris ever again. Not like I'll live long enough to really recover.
I made a pact if I wasn't famous or whatever to die at 27. It fucking sucks. FUCK THIS. I can only see myself being a happy member of society is by being a serial killer, or being addicted to drugs my whole life, or FUCKING 80 pounds at 40 or... I dont know with a partner as ILL as me.
If I'm happier being self destructive and that's suicidal. Well, none of us are gonna live past 27.
20 years is retro after all, and the best part of suicide is YOU choose it.
It's not goodbye for now, but later ill be gone. Their consequences is the shame.
if I somehow live past 27... I will recover. I'll do meds.
