Fuck everything

[lkjhgfdsa1]

what the fuck
I am going through fucking delusions
I want to live so badly
but I cannot accept this life no matter what I try
fuck all of this
i don't want to go turn my life around it is hopeless i want to fucking die
i dont' want to go through this
i don't want to suffer in this way
i'm fucking suffering every moment
i am just trying to distract myself from existential crisis what the fuck i am so confused

 

[derpyderpins]

It's been a rough couple days, hasn't it? I feel for you, struggling so much and clearly very anxious. Makes me think of the Killer's "Spaceman", which I've always thought is pretty clearly about the aftermath of a suicide attempt:

Well now I'm back at home, and
I'm looking forward to this life I live
You know it's gonna haunt me
So hesitation to this life I give​

​

You think you might cross over
You're caught between the devil and the deep blue sea
You better look it over
Before you make that leap​

​

And you know I'm fine
But I hear those voices at night sometimes
They justify my claims
And the public don't dwell on my transmission
'Cause it wasn't televised​

Sending you hugs. I know you'll figure out what's best for yourself.

 

[Unknown21]

what the fuck
I am going through fucking delusions
I want to live so badly
but I cannot accept this life no matter what I try
fuck all of this
i don't want to go turn my life around it is hopeless i want to fucking die
i dont' want to go through this
i don't want to suffer in this way
i'm fucking suffering every moment
i am just trying to distract myself from existential crisis what the fuck i am so confused

Life is provocative in my opinion, full of suffering, nihilism, lack of meaning and futility...etc. These things made me more convinced that suicide is the solution to the huge problems that drive me to it

 

[LaughingGoat]

I'm interested to hear what specifically in life it is that you can't accept?