Decided on FSH due to efficacy and finality. I want to die. Like now.
Tonight I diapered myself, tied my anchor (double constrictor) and noose (poacher's knot) knots, restrained my arms using some BDSM equipment to prevent my hands clawing at my neck, hooded myself, and had the noose around my neck but I couldn't manage to jump off the ladder due to SI.
I had like 5 beers and 30 mg of Abilify, but that isn't apparently enough.
This sucks, and I want to die.
Any other advice on how to successfully hang oneself? What's the best way for someone in the US to get benzos, like Xanax? What symptoms should I present to my NP with? Already dxed as schizophrenic, schizotypal, schizoid, etc.
Tonight I diapered myself, tied my anchor (double constrictor) and noose (poacher's knot) knots, restrained my arms using some BDSM equipment to prevent my hands clawing at my neck, hooded myself, and had the noose around my neck but I couldn't manage to jump off the ladder due to SI.
I had like 5 beers and 30 mg of Abilify, but that isn't apparently enough.
This sucks, and I want to die.
Any other advice on how to successfully hang oneself? What's the best way for someone in the US to get benzos, like Xanax? What symptoms should I present to my NP with? Already dxed as schizophrenic, schizotypal, schizoid, etc.
