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gardenhouse

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Mar 26, 2026
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Actually i've never suffered from depression before, my depression is caused by tinnitus which robbed off my restful sleep, i mostly don't sleep these days even if i manage to sleep is only for 1-2 hrs, as a result i struggle to enjoy the wonderful life i once enjoyed, yes i'm alive but i'm not surviving well, i mean sleep is so basic in human life, just as basic as water and food. This has caused me to become suicidal and depressed.

I've read the PPGHB throughly, i know sn is discussed a lot here but due to the increasing cases of self harm, now authorities have made so difficult to obtain. I know one source to get NB, but NB has harsh punishment if you get caught, CM can be done at home, the book gives detailed instructions to do it, but i'm not a chemist, since I don't live alone people would wonder what i'm doing, it looks like HS gas is the easiest to do, but the peacefulness rate is low as The PPGHB rates, you will most likely suffocate to the strong odors rotten eggs before you loose consciousness. All other lethal drugs are prescription drugs only which make them hard to get. So i feel stuck with what am i supposed to do?
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I understand finding it so torturous to exist, it's just so cruel and terrible how there's all this suffering in existing yet humans make it illegal to cease existing painlessly, I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to never exist again, I hope you find the freedom you are searching for.
 
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gardenhouse

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Mar 26, 2026
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I understand finding it so torturous to exist, it's just so cruel and terrible how there's all this suffering in existing yet humans make it illegal to cease existing painlessly, I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to never exist again, I hope you find the freedom you are searching for.
I know, those who are never in the shoes of those suffering always think that life is always worth living for
 
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