Venting Found a new pov on it

[MyaMia]

Been sitting here and having a good cry, wondering who'd cry at my funeral if anyone arranged it. Turned into a tangent on all the funerals I'd end up going to if I continue to be chicken shit about it.

Then I realised.

If I CTB then I won't have to lose anyone - I won't have to watch my older loved ones' illnesses and dementia get any worse, I won't have to bury anyone.

And that's so fucking freeing!

It makes me look forward to setting up my CTB method.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand why you'd feel relief, in my case what appeals to me about ceasing to exist is that it's permanent and I cannot suffer in any way, I only hope to never suffer again. But anyway I wish you all the best.

 

[sugarb]

Been sitting here and having a good cry, wondering who'd cry at my funeral if anyone arranged it. Turned into a tangent on all the funerals I'd end up going to if I continue to be chicken shit about it.

Then I realised.

If I CTB then I won't have to lose anyone - I won't have to watch my older loved ones' illnesses and dementia get any worse, I won't have to bury anyone.

And that's so fucking freeing!

It makes me look forward to setting up my CTB method.

Yeah. I don't want to see my grandparents' graves.