aushunaph
Member
- Feb 19, 2026
- 9
i hate my life so much. it's been seven years of being depressed and suicidal, and i've only attempted once because i never have access to anything. im sick of living with my parents and my purchases monitored and all the medication locked up. i dont have my own money or car so it's not like i can go anywhere to buy stuff. if i did decide to rope or something, they check up on me so much that i'd survive with brain damage or be forced to go to residential psych. and they're already considering residential now when i haven't even attempted in six months and i never talk to them about suicide or my depression. it's just so unfair. no person should ever be forced to live when their life is so fucked up and ruined. when they can't get a partner or have kids. when i have to play pretend and live in a society filled with delusions that money or jobs or any of this matters. im just so tired, but i can't even end it with dignity.