For those of you who have attempted: Did you prefer the planning, or the execution?

[Cockney_Rebel]

As per the title?

Myself, I absolutely love the buildup. The research, the planning, the logistics, the daydreaming, the fantasising.

By the time it's a green light, you just go into autopilot.

I love the whole process.

 

[eve2004]

i always have a few plans... I'll get caught up with a particular one and keep "working" on it (ie testing it) for a while to test the limits... The further I get, the better I feel... less stressed.... the more reassurance I have. Basically, this is how I pass my time when I'm in extreme distress, work on the logistics.

 

[Cockney_Rebel]

i always have a few plans... I'll get caught up with a particular one and keep "working" on it (ie testing it) for a while to test the limits... The further I get, the better I feel... less stressed.... the more reassurance I have. Basically, this is how I pass my time when I'm in extreme distress, work on the logistics.

Same.

I'm always researching.

 

[eve2004]

I like to skip a day in between to let whatever I did fully express itself or detox...

 

[hybridtheory]

I enjoy the euphoric part before even planning it. That high you get when you come to terms with ctb and realize it's the right choice for you. And nothing else in the world matters because you have your mind set on dying, so all of the suffering and pain just finally escapes and you can be at peace. It's kinda like dissociating while on drugs plus riding a roller coaster, a fucking rush

 

[Cockney_Rebel]

I enjoy the euphoric part before even planning it. That high you get when you come to terms with ctb and realize it's the right choice for you. And nothing else in the world matters because you have your mind set on dying, so all of the suffering and pain just finally escapes and you can be at peace. It's kinda like dissociating while on drugs plus riding a roller coaster, a fucking rush

Pukka response.

 

[hybridtheory]

Pukka response.

is it bad that i had to look up what pukka meant
i've never heard that before lol

 

[Cockney_Rebel]

is it bad that i had to look up what pukka meant
i've never heard that before lol

Ha, I'm Cockney so just assumed you'd know what it meant!

Silly assumption really, as this is a global site.

 

[FogFilledLife]

Planning makes me horny. Execution I feel nothing.

 

[No_Longer_Human]

The buildup/planning was absolutely terrifying, but there was something about it that was thrilling. The execution tasted awful and I was conscious and suffering for longer than I wanted to be. But I also kind of hated the execution because it felt like I was doing it more out of obligation than a heartfelt desire to die.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

The execution, because that means, I would have been able to persavere through survival instinct and guilt.

Planning just makes me anxious for it to be my time.

 

[Gustav Hartmann]

It sounds like autassassinophilia if the planning makes you horny, but I feel the same. In this case one should keep on planning and never execute.

When ends the planning and when starts the execution? How can I talk about the execution? I would say a failed attempt is part of the planning.

 

[.............]

The planning felt euphoric, but the attempt made me feel worthless and terrified.